I am 24 and I have struggled with these thoughts since I have been 16 or so there are voices in my head that constantly tell me I will never be good enough I will never be happy I have tried to kill my self so many times the only thing in my life that has stopped me is moving on without me I held a loaded 45 to my head last night and I have never come that close to ending myselfy my parents have said that everything that’s wrong with there life is my fault and they have no son my girlfriend is getting distant and i dont know what i did my friends have all moved on without me even when i had my girlfriend and close friends i still always felt alone like i didn’t fit in after a wile you learn to make a fake smile you put on when hanging out with people and i have been doing that for years now I have come to realise why should I? all I do is work eat sleep work eat sleep its a never ending cycle what’s the reason to keep on living so I can buy things so I can have a family Then what ?I don’t know how many more of these days I can handle I feel stupid for posting this but if any one reads it thanks for your time
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Right there with you, buddy.
You are obviously dealing with some serious inner demons and I can understand how things may seem hopeless. You are still very young, however, and have plenty of time to discover the root of your problems and address them. Have you tried speaking with a counselor or therapist? They may be able to help you sort things out.
L4Y
(L4Y@cogeco.ca)
Counselors help me quite a lot. I used to have thoughts like that everyday. I actually attempted once but I was smart enough to get the tie away from my neck. Now I see my counselor every week and she is helping me quite a lot. Sure I still have bad days but there isn’t as many anymore