I’m mad for basically no reason.
…. Completely furious.
And my utility blades are sorely tempting me, which helps absolutely nothing.
…..
Someone shoot me, please; just put me out of my nonsense and leave the rest of the world to twirl along without me.
God, I was having such a good…
I don’t even know anymore. I’m just sick of this.
I am thoroughly done with all of this utter bullshit and these slam-dunk nothings.
Just
shoot
me.
……………………………………………………………………………..
Oh, I don’t know what I’m doing anymore.
I don’t know what I’m going to do.
I don’t know what I have been doing.
Just please, someone, find me. I feel so lost.
I need…
Please help me. Anyone.
Please.
Please?
Just look a little bit closer. Ask just one more time. Call my bluff, tell me I’m lying.
… I can’t. I really can’t tell you on my own.
Just a little push. A little more.
Please find me.
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hugs. wish I could reach out and make it better for you.
Hey man chill, ur among friends here and we aren’t going to let anything bad be done to you so no, no shooting you. Talk to me man, about whatever you want I’m here to listen, lay it on me bro. I want to help you find yourself again mate
wow, I remember you! It’s sad to know your situation in the long run hasn’t changed since you were last here. I understand the exasperation and frustration that comes with obstructed progress, but that isn’t a sign that things will absolutely never change. Hang in there (sorry if that’s too cliche, but I mean it, you should stick around and see what happens) I would love to talk to you if you need someone to talk to.
Hey guys.
Sorry, I’ve been busy.
@Whispers: Thank you, seriously. Maybe I’ll manage somewhere near better eventually.
@Peace: I honestly, sincerely appreciate your support. I’d love your help. But I’m not very good at talking, just venting at the random, sporadic times I allow myself to explode.
@russo: Do you? It’s been a while.
I’m trying to hold on, and I’ll continue to, but God is it tempting to quit; the future, as I’m sure you’ll understand, doesn’t look bright.