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Someone please come to my house and shoot me already! I fucking give up! again
I haven’t posted in awhile. Probably no one even noticed. If you did, I’m sorry for not posting. Stupid asshole me for actually thinking someone would care. I think when I last posted I was manic. Ended up in the hospital for that. Don’t believe them when they say they won’t put you in the hospital for cutting. I’m getting too old for this bullshit. So they change my meds and I end up with major depression. I wouldn’t even go to the docs except I want my Klonopin and Ambien. Also, I need them to certify me so I can keep getting my disability […]
My name is Kat and I’m a freelance writer working on a story about pro-suicide media. I was wondering if any of you have experiences with pro-suicide chat rooms/ forums/ sites that you might be open to sharing. I know this is a very sensitive topic, so no pressure whatsoever, but if you do feel comfortable sharing a story I would really appreciate the insight. Shoot me an email at curiousgoth26@gmail.com. Thanks for your help!
If anybody is out there and struggling with transgender or knows somebody battling these feelings and the intense inner turmoil that comes with this: please give me a shout.
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I’m ready to do something extreme. I’ve never felt this degree of panic or anxiety or intense death. Holy fuck.
i don’t understand how people can be there one day and then all of a sudden they’re gone.
It’s not fair that we should talk every day for weeks on end and create this beautiful friendship where we are open and honest with each other and then lose it all. And for what? We got together and I spent the night at your house and we stayed up talking and kissing and, to put it in a word, caressing one another. Then when I admit my feelings to you, you shoot me down. It’s cool if you don’t want a relationship, I can live with that. […]
I’m mad for basically no reason.
…. Completely furious.
And my utility blades are sorely tempting me, which helps absolutely nothing.
…..
Someone shoot me, please; just put me out of my nonsense and leave the rest of the world to twirl along without me.
God, I was having such a good…
I don’t even know anymore. I’m just sick of this.
I am thoroughly done with all of this utter bullshit and these slam-dunk nothings.
Just
shoot
me.
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Oh, I don’t know what I’m doing anymore.
I don’t know what I’m going to do.
I don’t know what I have been doing.
Just please, someone, find me. I feel so lost.
I […]
Why? Why me? Thats something ive been asking myself for a long time. Now i know im nothing special, theres probably millions of other depressed trans kids wanting to kill themselves. I just personally cant stand this. The waking up every morning and seeing that disgusting wrong body. I am nothing but a pathetic girl who wants to be a boy who cant even wear a feminine shirt without being physically uncomfortable, a fraud who portrays themselves as someone who is fine, who doesnt cry. But i cry almost every fucking night. Im crying right now. Crying over the disgusting body i can only change […]
if someone pointed a gun to me and was going to shoot me, id take the gun and do it myself… nobody will get the satisfaction that they killed me except for me… theyve all caused me enough pain as it is. i wont let them finish what they started so maybe theyll have the feeling of being incomplete and empty wondering why it couldnt have ended their way… someone try and drown me… help me set myself free…
Damn. It’s Hot. I hate this island. Nothing ever makes sense here. Everyone is smoking and drinking and killing cursing and…is happy. Why do buses filled with white people come here? Who in their right mind would want to come here? Avoid the groid! It’s so hot! Is this hell? Because everyone torments me with their jubilee while I am just devastated. I thought that If I preserved my memories they preserve me but they are just a mental horror movie. My childhood wasted. The real me Lost somewhere in between the beatings and loneliness and alienation. Why here!? Haha. Maybe I should run to […]
I have been consumed with thoughts of suicide. Tonight I was crying to ask my brother to shoot me in the head. As serious as could be asked. I wanted to say it so bad. Even after his prodding “you can tell me anything” questions.
The tears flowed but I wouldn’t give in. I was so close to just blurting it out but I couldn’t. I had the restraint not to tell him. I don’t know what I feared more, thought of him saying no but then even more if he said yes. I feared his yes because I honestly feel as though I would […]
I too have lost a love and still wish to be with her. she loves me too, but says she just cant be with me. Just watched the movie and want to die. Anyone want to be Wilson and shoot me?