My boyfriend of two years has left me and i cant go on.
I know this seems drastic but my life has not been easy and this is the final straw.
I was abused by my grandfather from an early age and because of this was unable to have children, (hysterectomy at 21)
My stepfather used to beat us instead of facing his issues with his father. And our mother beat us because defending us caused her to be beaten.
I have two failed marriages and i cant cope any more.
I love this man with all my heart but he has chosen to leave.
I have reserched my options, i am sorry to whoever will find me.
I cant do this.
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I am sooo sorry for your loss. I know he hasn’t died but it’s still a loss that you are dealing with. I know how painful that can be and I know how much it make your heart literally hurt. I was with someone from 15-23 when he left me. We even lived together all those years starting at 15. I couldn’t breathe. I literally could not take a normal breath. I sobbed all day from the moment I opened my eyes in the morning if in fact I even slept the night before. I couldn’t understand why or how he could just throw away all those years and everything we went through like we were nothing. We ended up back together but it took me time to get over it even then.
I know this hurts. Please don’t let all of your life’s possibilities go because of it. The pain WILL go away. You won’t feel that hurt forever. And when the time comes, you will find somebody who loves you unconditionally and would rather die than ever leave you and when you do have that person, you’ll feel silly for ever caring so much about the loss of this one because that love will be so great that any former love will seem like a joke.
In the meantime, you can make it out of this. I promise you can.
I can not imagine what you have been through, and what all the difficulties you are currently dealing with… I cannot sit here and tell you “stick through it” “you can do it” “give it time” because in all honesty I hate when people tell that to myself. And just reading your story makes it almost impossible to believe that you will listen to what anyone says to you, just because of everything you’ve experienced … but I do want to say this, that the worst things that happen to us are the things that are eventually sooner or later going to make us stronger individuals… We just have to be patient, so we are able to experience that strength that is meant for us…. So if you can just hold one please a little while longer, something good is bound to happen… you just have to find that little light left inside of you ….
I am very sorry for all the pain you have been through. You are an incredibly strong person to have endured everything you have.
Your boyfriend leaving you is very hurtful, no doubt, but it doesn’t have to be the final straw. You have proven that you can defeat adversity on more than one occasion and can now as well. During times like this, it’s generally best to lean on loved ones for support. It’s very difficult to deal with something like this alone. I wish you the best.
L4Y
(L4Y@cogeco.ca)