Travelling on a train I wonder how many of my fellow passengers suffer from suicidal thoughts; who, like me, had considered jumping under the train instead of getting on it.
In the supermarket I wonder how many of the other customers suffer from depression; who, like me, had difficulty getting out of bed and motivated.
Walking down the road I wonder how many of whose walking past suffer from social anxiety; who, like me, just want to be hidden away indoors instead.
How many others are there who suffer in quiet; ripped apart on the inside, but silent stoicism on the outer; I wonder.
In the supermarket I wonder how many of the other customers suffer from depression; who, like me, had difficulty getting out of bed and motivated.
Walking down the road I wonder how many of whose walking past suffer from social anxiety; who, like me, just want to be hidden away indoors instead.
How many others are there who suffer in quiet; ripped apart on the inside, but silent stoicism on the outer; I wonder.
There was a recent news report about people who took their own life, after using SP, I know, with regards to people suffering in silence, that behind each one is a hidden story of desperation. As I sit alone, pondering my future, I wonder if anyone will be sad if I succumb to suicide, if anyone will care at my passing, or will I just be a statistic in a report, one more added to the count.
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Nias I realize this post is old but I know you still come here now and again so perhaps you will see this… it is abt people knowing. If I knew you had committed suicide I would feel that loss. I would remember all our conversations and feel sad that there would never be another. If your coworkers found out I think they would feel sad that they didn’t try to get to know you better. Isn’t that what you would think if one of your coworkers died by their own hand? And your roommates and your family and your neighbours and the people you see on a regular basis like maybe the clerks at a grocery store etc. If you knew wouldn’t you think to yourself that you should have said hi more often or asked abt their day? And that is what people will think of you. As years pass you will still cross our minds from time to time and we will feel both happy abt knowing you and sad that you are gone. You will be both a statistic and a person who is missed.
Thank you Whispers for being there.