I find myself spending virtually all my time thinking, contemplating how meaningless everything is, and what the world will be like after I am gone (and it seems much better without than with me.)
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That’s a key sign your depressed. Tell someone so you can get help and get your life back.
It’s a sad thing to reach such a state…you have to fall through a good number of levels to hit that, self-esteem being destroyed, finding no joy/meaning in life…I can relate I’ve felt that way also.
It’s not something I’d wish for on anyone else. There is a girl in my life who I feel might be vulnerable to ending up that way too, though right now she’s fairly content with life. But life has a way of breaking people down. I recall an episode of the The Simpsons when Homer was griping about how the joy was taken out of his life and how miserable he felt…while it was humor, it was also a jarringly accurate representation of what some people experience.
I wish I could offer you words of hope but every life is different. Tomorrow any one of us could win the lottery and not be suicidal anymore…but that ‘feeling’ can’t be transferred to others. Which is why I don’t pass judgment on those who want to end their lives….I’ve been in that same spot many times too.
Yes, every life is different. I can honestly say winning the lottery wouldn’t make me feel better though. It would make things easier no doubt, but i don’t feel like it would do anything for me. As it is, I don’t do much now because I’m miserable and that has helped me save a lot. Having the ability to do something does not mean one will find reason and pupurpose in their life.
I think about what the world would be like with billions of other people dead