well this is my first post here and I can say I’m a little shy … Let me tell you a little about my day and perhaps very soon on my life. Today was an ordinary day, I went to school, I met my only friend and as always people looked at me ugly, as if it not was for me to be there.. The day passed without anything extraordinary (addition to people ignoring me, as I said anything different) I went home and then that feeling of loneliness revived (in fact it is ALWAYS there) and then started to cry as she thought in life .. You know sometimes I think “because I do not kill me ?” “Coward! Get it over with that damn suffering!” but then my mother’s voice saying “I don’t know what I would do without you” and the image of her crying in my burial appears in my mind and it makes the only part that I consider living in me disintegrate slowly .. Would if I took my life I would be taking a part of it too ? D:
Ps: sorry for my bad english, I’m Brazilian and used the translate
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Hi sadchild. Welcome. Your English was fine. Don’t worry about that because we will understand. I don’t think you’re actually ugly. Your mother would miss you very much. Is there somebody you can speak to about your feelings? Are there activities you can join to make new friends? Sometimes the school years can be difficult. You definitely shouldn’t give up.
hii distant.road, thanks for reading!
well I have someone to listen to me but I do not like to expose my feelings, know ? I prefer to keep to myself (even though it is worse)
I do not go out much so no, I have no activity to make new friends. :/
School really is the worst time of life D:
I understand not wanting to share your feelings. Be careful. I keep stuff to myself, too. When you finish school, things will probably be different. The change of scenery might help. Is there a counselor at school you can talk to?