it seems lately there’s been alot of angst on this site….i think it can be theraputic for some people to take their anger out on ppl they dont know…..so here’s a few things i hate about myself, for obvious reasons;
1. i’m a fatist…i dont like really fat people, like 400lbs or over….i only weigh 95-100lbs bc my depression gives me a total lack of appetite, so i cant understand why people can let themselves go like that….i know it’s wrong of me to think this way, but i do…….
2. sometimes i lie to my family members for money to spend on things that are unhealthy for me
3. in the second year of my marrige, i cheated on my husband and really did some irrepreble damage to our realtionship. i’m the type of person who tries to wreak good things bc i dont think i’m good enough for them; or hurt ppl before they can hurt me.
4. I struggle with addiction to drugs….mostly i do ok, maybe once or twice a month i’ll slip up, which is really horrible, bc even tho i take every safegaurd to ensure my kids wont find out, someday they mite, and it’s just an all around horrible selfish thing for me to do that could really hurt those i care about, and even tho i really try not to do things just to hurt myself sometimes i’m too weak to stop myself
5.sometimes i can be manipulative towards ppl without really meaning to, because i dont trust people to be honest
6. these are the worst things about myself, since it’s valenines day, i have some things i need to go do first, but anyone who needs a safe way to get their anger out, please feel free to vent here….for my own sake, i prob wont read the comments posted, so let em rip
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so you’ve lied, cheated, manipulated, drugs, and you don’t like fat people… hmm… have we dated? sure you’re not a man??
girl please, now i feel bad about my list- XOXOXO
god i love you!!!! maybe i should consider cheating on my husband AGAIN…..maybe he wont mind if it’s /w a chic(lol)…..in the middle of livingroom baloon volleyball with da fambly n makin a romantical dinner….but u should call me so we can chat r whtever….256-539-9319….if ur worried bout long distance $$ u can shoot me urs thru my email quartney_stack @ yahoo . com LUVS!!!
Congrats, you just described a regular person (other than the fatist one, but almost everyone has an aversion for some random determined thing). Most of us have done the same (and worse), so maybe you are just being to hard on yourself about most of those, if kept at bay most of those are harmless things.
@disposablegrl: now i’m the one who almost pissed laughing, hahaha.
The important aspect about admitting ones mistakes is truly realizing that you wronged others and yourself by doing what you did and changing yourself in such a way that mistakes like that dont happen again. We’re just humans and not perfect, thus everyone deserve a second chance. Or third. Or one thousandth. But the requirement for that always is the willingness for improving yourself by learning from those mistakes. And sorry if I sound like a douche, so correct me if Im wrong, but to me it doesnt seem like you are ready to do that yet.
Also depends on the mistake. Some people aren’t cut out for monogamy. I know our society here in the USA is HUGE on pushing it… but some people just cant do it, they need to be free to express themselves with multiple people. Maybe that’s multiple committed people, maybe it’s just one (or more) committed people with the ability to have some fun here and there.
Neither monogamy nor polygamy is wrong… but pairing one up with the other is never going to work. Likewise forcing yourself to stay with a person you don’t really want to be is also not going to work.
So if you find yourself cheating, I think the most important part for anyone to figure out is WHY they are… can they not commit to just one person (or at all)? Can they just not commit at that point? Are they just lacking something with their partner? If you can’t figure out the why then you’re basically setting yourself up to make that mistake again.
i think for me, i was just afraid; afraid of how good my husband and i had it, like i didnt deserve anything this good…n what it would do to me if he left me….so i tried to sabotage myself….thankfully here we still are, married 10, almost 11 next month…..but if u live in alabama n wanna fuck, look me up…..lol JUST KIDDING!!
@clair…no, that dosent seem douch-ey AT ALL, i totally agree with u n some respects….i admit i’m a work in progress, i try n own up to my mistakes, i think that’s the 1st step, dont u?….n if ur talking bout what i think ur talking about…holla at me thru my email-i’ll send u the correspondence in question privately, off this site, where it dosnt need to be hashed out publicly…….
Not sure what you mean. If you wanna email me: clairdelune123@web.de