I appreciate those who responded to my post about how I want to die from autoerotic asphyxia as there is no cure for what I am into! I was put on this Earth to share my story with as many people as I can! At least if I lose my sanity and end up taking my life because of this intense desire that I have, then I will have at least accomplished something very important by sharing my story about it!
I wish that there was someone who I could talk to about this, but I don’t trust anyone! I’ve gone to a couple of therapists and I certainly didn’t feel comfortable talking about this to them and I feel that if I can’t feel safe talking to someone about it, then I shouldn’t be talking to them about it! This one guy once even started blackmailing him if I didn’t spend a lot of money making him rich off of my pain, but I don’t want to go into that right now! I have already heard that I can’t call the suicide hotline because they have caller ID and if I say the wrong thing, I could end up getting committed to a mental institution and I would rather die from this than end up in one of those horrible places! As for the suicide hotline keeping things “confidential”, well, that’s bullshit!
I asked a couple of people of who has counseling or even a place that has counseling in which they won’t rat me out to the psychiatric goons that would get me committed to a mental institution. Some one told me that if I called Love Lines, they would not rat me out? Love Lines is a Christian counseling line! Even if they don’t rat me out, they will be shocked, horrified and disgusted once I tell them that I want to hang myself while I am jerking off! They will probably tell me that I will end up burning in Hell because of this and I don’t need to hear that kind of shit! At least they will pray for me! A lot of people have prayed for me, but it didn’t do any good! They also said that if I went to a Unitarian Church, which is liberal they may or may not rat me out, so I have nowhere to go where I can trust anyone?
I don’t know if anyone has ever heard of Mind Freedom? They are an organization which is for people who have been abused and had their human rights violated from the mental health system! Just Google Mind Freedom and you should be able to find them. More people should link up with them! It’s the people at Mind Freedom who I know in my area that I asked if there is anyone who I can talk to about this without getting ratted out, but they don’t know of much!
I plan to do some traveling in the next couple of months, which might cause my intense aea desires to simmer down, a bit for awhile. There are good things in my life and plenty of bad things and I can’t stand the bad things, even with the good things and if I lose the good things, then life won’t be worth living anymore! I wish that I could link up with other people who are into aea, like forums, but I don’t know of any? There is so much more to this story that I hope to be able to share before I die!
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I couldn’t help noticing that you use exclamation points a lot! There are some who might say your use of exclamation marks is excessive! Is this RT3? He was another guy on this site who used exclamation points a lot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don’t know RT3 and I am not him!
how did u apply for disability 32?
🙂 Ok!
Apparently a few people have died from autoerotic asphyxiation. It can be difficult for coroners to rule whether these deaths were intentional or not. (David Carradine and Michael Hutchence come to mind).
Idk. Being found dead, naked, and hanging from a rope after jerking off doesn’t seem like a way that I’d want to be found, but to each his own I suppose.
I was naked when I was born, so I want to be naked when I die! I just want to go out of this world the way that I came into it. It seems like a deep spiritual feeling and I don’t know if I can believe it, but I feel it!
I did look but couldn’t find any forums dedicated to AEA. I am surprised by that. If you’re willing to talk to someone who doesn’t engage in AEA, I’d be happy to talk.
I would like to talk to you, but at the same time, I am afraid to talk about this, but I feel that I need someone to talk to about this! I am willing to talk to you about this, but I would like to wait a few days. Also, do you know anyone who has Asperger’s and how much do you know about it?
if you have netflix, (i think it’s still on there) u should watch World’s greatest Dad…or it’s called something like that….it stars robin williams; the single dad /w the asshole kid who dies from aea on accident; but to save him this final embarrassment he writes his son’s suicide note….i wont tell u the rest, but it’s good…..***intresting fact*** the dude frm kill bill; the main nemesis; died frm auto erotic asphixiation
There are some sites that say that Robin Williams died from autoerotic asphyxia! I don’t know if I am willing to believe that, but I think that it is a possibility? Thanks for letting me know about World’s Greatest Dad movie! I hope to rent it soon. As for disability, I applied and I was denied, so I had to get a lawyer before I was able to get it! They deny 95% of people who apply the first time, so you will have to appeal and most likely get a lawyer. Your congressperson might be able to help you get it? You will need support from a doctor or maybe a psychologist that you are unable to get and maintain employment. I am afraid that you will have to wait 2-3 years before you can get it, but your chances of getting it with the support of a doctor are very good! It’s just best to get the process started!
Robin Williams definitely did not die from autoerotic asphyxia. He had cuts on his wrists, indicating suicide attempts or at least the fact that he was not seeking eroticism. Furthermore, everything leading up to his death was full of red flags, even his onset of that illness (parkinsons I think) which he was struggling coming to terms with, to his career and permanent depression in general.
Physically though I don’t think he suffered, I’m just taking a guess but I think he probably went unconscious pretty fast due to pressure on the carotid. At least I hope he didn’t suffer.
I just spent spending Saturday Night at the Movies watching World’s Greatest Dad as I just got done watching it. It just goes to illustrate that this culture that we live in is infested with bullshit! The best message in the movie is: “The only thing worse than dying alone is being with a bunch of people who make you feel alone”. I will comment more on my reaction to the movie within the next few days.
World’s Greatest Dad illistrates that this culture is bullshit, but I already knew that!