Ive thought about it long and hard! I have this plan running away!! killing myself!! Should i? let me explain!
Age 9-I was taken away from my dad and moved to Ohio
House 1- My mom sister(Aunt) It was horrid..My cousin took a knife to my throut and i got beat for it, that was the last day i was there.
House 2- was my other aunts house and we got in a huge fight and she moved out.. we sleft on the floor all through christmas and for my 10 birthday
House 3- An apartment with just me and my mom, i was left home alot, she worked all the time… i got scared alot, but it was fun droping eggs on the people below me lol..
house 4- the house im in now when we first got here i slept on the couch.. then in my mom boyfreinds daughters room what was worse becuase she bullied me.. she pushed me down the damn stairs…then i moved rooms and now thats where im at..
i was Raped from ages 2 to 12 im 13
It was my sisters boyfreind hes 33
Now my sisters 5 monthes pregnant she she didnt belive me so she moved and wont talk to me
I cut..I starved….I Burned..I cried everynight but i still went back to the house i was raped in on the weekend becasue he abused my sister.. i went back to protect her.. it kept happening.. but i had to protect her
No one knew for until i told my grandma and she tole the police
they still havent caught him
the last day i saw my sister she said she wanted to get hit by a truck
i walked up to her and raised my sleeves and said yout dont think i want to.. she said to get away from her and to leave her alone
i still cut and starve to this day……
so do you think i should die or run away
comment below or Email me at angelhohimer2003@gmail.com
and no i wasnt born in 2003 its the year my brother was
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Your past sounds a little like mine. I’m not sure if you have a cell phone but if you do there’s an app called kik you can find me at darkestraven1218
Your sister is hurting and it’s only natural. I’d say give it a bit of time, and most likely she’ll come to her senses. Keep in mind she must be feeling mad/guilty and deep down she surely knows you are not to blame. If you only have the options of running away or taking your life i’d say run away… but not until you give things some time first. This was your sister’s bf doing and you are not to blame for it. I really hope things get better for you.
You need to be understanding, your sister just got news that the man she was in love with and devoted to was actually a pedophile and a rapist. I apologize for your history, I know somebody who’s been through something similar and they wrestle with it every day of their life. Back to your sister, she just had her world turned upside down, she’s pregnant and has nobody to help support her through this difficult time of anyone’s life. It’s so confusing and I get that rationally you know it’s all good and she still loves you, but that irrational part of your brain still says that she hates you. I’ve been around about a year more than you, and I know for a fact that life gets better. Don’t mistake that for me saying that I don’t have dark times anymore, oh hell yes I do, but the thing is that if you hold on for long enough somebody’ll come into your life and make it worth living again. I don’t want to be one of those guys that tries to save every person they come across, but I have to tell you, this life does get better, I hate myself yet I stick around for the people that don’t hurt so much. Again, trying not to preach here, just trying to help with the experience I’ve had.
Personally, I’d surrender if I had gone through that much. You need to decide for yourself whether your life is worth continuing. Is there anything important you really want to do in your life? If there is, you should persevere and live longer. No one has the right to judge you. You have the right to do what you want.
But its been 4 months since i last seen my sister for all i know she could be dead now mind you this happend in October of 2014 and since the last day i say her she hasn’t text-ed called or even mentioned me on Facebook
oh and darkest-raven i did have a phone but i got it taken away about a month ago because me and my cousin attempted to run but got caught!