im so scared of what i might do like i don’t wanna go to school anymore because i keep getting beat up and i don’t wanna leave my house i don’t know whats outside and I’m scared something will happen! i just wanna cut even when I’m happy i wanna cut i should be dead? am i worthless? i just wanna get better but i also just wanna die! is this normal? am i normal? i don’t think can do this for much longer…
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You’re not worthless.
“Normal” is a relative term.
If there’s some idiots bugging you at school, you should fight them back. Full force.
I know it sounds like a dumb idea, but from experience: If someone is bullying you – Fight them back.
It might sound impossible for a person who feels down but believe me, it makes you feel better, gets rid of them in most cases, and makes you feel more alive too as a side effect.
You shouldn’t hurt yourself. It will just make it worse for you.
If your being assaulted or harassed at school, step 1, take your smartphone and discretely have the record app up in your pocket that you can press discretely. Record your interaction with these people, then show the principle and/or the police and get them suspended or arrested.
You should also never let people pick on you. I know its very hard but don’t ever let it happen. But try the above first. Discretely record it then they’ll really be in deep trouble.
I’m telling you from experience. I know how you feel. Stay strong and be brave.
Both posts above me were excellent. OP, I don’t know how big you are or how much back-up you have, but you should get your parents and the cops involved. I’m in my 40s now and have faced some mild bullying in school when I was young.
The person I am today is not to be f-ked with. I’d simply go to school with a -tool- (use your imagination) and give each and every person that bullied me (or helped the bully) the thrashing of their lives so they wouldn’t dream of ever lifting even a finger against me. Of course it’d mean you’d probably have to be on guard, perhaps even get a gun, in case you ever get jumped by a mob but trust me, that’s the only thing they understand.
You cannot live in fear of others-no one is better than you. If you have a brother or family member that can help you out that’d be better. Anyways, good luck-don’t let bullies dictate your life.
And trust me I know from experience, if you take on a bully they will think twice next time. The issues you face is played out on a daily basis in politics, between belligerent nations. The rules of war also apply to the school yard…read Sun Tzu’s Art of War, one of the best books ever on this subject.
Let me add I have seen the change in someone’s eyes, when they realize that you can bring as much harm to them as they can bring to you. The regret, the fear of you….the exact same things they tried to make you feel, now they’ll be experiencing it. It’s priceless.
I once had a physical fight with a so-called friend in grade 8, let’s call him Moe, and months later I almost got into another fight but walked away with a handshake (I had no problem with this other guy, we just traded some taunts).
However Moe kept calling me a coward/*****, etc…I looked straight at him and said ‘you want to fight again *****?’ And he shut right up….he doesn’t know our battle was pretty painful for me at the time (probably as much for him), but I wasn’t the least bit intimidated by this scoundrel. Trust me, being tough is the better way to go-regardless of the outcome. But of course don’t be fool-hardy. If you’re outgunned (by strength or numbers, it’s wiser to flee).