God wants me to kill myself

I think I’d be convinced of the same if I was in a 6 month church camp… The religion I was born into told me I was evil. My actions were evil, my thoughts just as bad.

I went on a motorcycle ride a few weeks ago. While at a gas station in the middle of nowhere, a van pulls up. 1 man and 4 women all dressed in home made clothing get out. Obvious polygamists. I thought to myself “I bet that young one there, can’t be much older than 16, is convinced of her world view. All she has known, all she knows is they are doing the “right thing”. She probably thinks I’m evil for /not/ having more than one wife, after all she is on the one true path to eternal salvation.”

Each of us has own own sheltered world view that is just as ridiculous to someone else. I hope its not because of something fixable that you feel this way.