We who deal with depression- how far will be go to hurt ourselves? I overeat. I don’t look at myself in the mirror- no idea what my hair is looking like. I don’t brush my teeth. So embarrassed at the doctor’s office when she looked in my mouth. Yuck! But I told her why and it helped to tell even that little bit.
We get upset facing the depression. We want to hurt ourselves in one way or another. Why do we do that?? The pay off is you are expressing your pain? Even the talk (hopefully only talking!) of killing ourselves is part of hurting us. I could just leave! I don’t have to play this game called life anymore!!
But really when we get to this point, we have to have compassion for ourselves. Think of a good friend- what would you tell them- really tell a friends you don’t want to lose- to give them strength to rethink?
Give it to yourself. Truly.