There is nothing good about me.
1) I am bangladeshi and still live in bangladesh.
2) I am autistic.
3) I am 19 which means almost 1/3 of my life is already over (because bangladeshi men usually live 60 years and women 70 years).
4) I am a male and I am inferior to females.
5) I am only 5’4”.
6) I am fugly and brown.
7) My parents are fucking poor, make only about 20k a year.
8) I have no skills because I am autistic and thus I have no job and no money.
9) I am the stupidest human to have ever existed.
10) My head is super small. only 9 inch long and 21 inch circumference. No wonder I am autistic and super stupid. I doubt that I even have a brain inside my super tiny head. I am so dumb I can’t even solve rubik’s cube.
11) I have an iq under 50.
12) I have no friends. Everyone hates me.
13) I am extremely socially awkward.
14) Never even got the chance to talk to a girl. got called a pervert for just looking at girls several times.
15) Life doesn’t get better no matter how hard I try.
16) I have no future.
WAAAAH! WAAAAH! (cries like a baby) T _ T Why the fuck was I even born if I can’t even live happily? screw this fucked up world! FUCK YOU STUPID WORLD! FUCK YOU MONEY! FUCK YOU INTELLIGENCE! FUCK YOU LUCK!
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I know what you mean about feeling stupid…it sucks feeling like that when it seems like it’s the most important thing these days. I doubt everyone hates you even though I think that a lot too.
everyone hates you when you are of no use to them. I am useless so everyone hates me
19 is nothin. You still have loads of time. I just see 17 reasons for you to overcome and win even better. you can overcome this adversity. you made it this far! i know you got at least another 19 in you.
I am tired of hearing things like “you can change your life” because I cant I am not making any progress life is only getting worse. tired of thinking so much
then dont think. just go with the flow
You have the ability to use a computer and chat with us. That’s good.
Maybe find a dream start up a website and see if people can fund or help out your dream
Well you got number 17) wrong so maybe you can prove your other numbers wrong one day
I’m not saying things will change‚ you can’t really predict that shit with that being said you’re still young and see how it goes .
Autistic has nothing to do with your intelligence. It means a difference of how the neurons in your brain communicate with each other. Your post proves you are intelligent!! You produced a strong rant. and have a gutsy attitude (since you complain so strongly about someone- you).
I’m not buying your rant at all though, you prove it wrong with being so strong and articulate about all you face. I think you are a good person and you have to give yourself credit for what you’ve faced and see your value. You have gotten through so much, that takes strength. And as far as you look, if you frown, you’re going to project a not so pleasant image. How we look on the outside has little to do with our inside.
I believe you are a kind soul who might be tired of being unhappy. I’m sorry that you feel so upset. I have had my share of unhappy feelings and it just bites! I hope those feelings ease and you feel happiness.
One thing you can see if you look, is the person underneath all of this pain. You are not your words. You are not your image. You are not your challenges. You are the person, the wonderful human being struggling with a lot of issues. I’m sorry it is so hard.
Keep talking here. There are people who feel the same and we can support each other, no matter where we are.
Take great care of YOU.
thanks for your thoughtful reply pretendgirl
And by the way, statistics may say that men in B live to 60, but you may live much longer. Statistics are not a rule, they are just a general idea of how long you may live according to how men in the past lived. We do not live in statistics, and some people will prove them right, others will prove them wrong.
P.S… I forgot to add your country’s name…. B meant Bangladeshi. I was going to copy Bangladeshi from your post, since I could not spell it without looking. My bad!
Hey dude,
My cousin is autistic, so I know how you feel and what youre going through. They are also under the poverty line, due to carers pension and unable to work. You seem very advanced for autistic, thats a great start. So your life span is shortened, make the most of it. Youre brown, a lot of girls love chocolate. Youre not inferior to anyone except your own thought process.
You must possess a special skill that you would excell in. My cousin builds and constructs things. He can build elaborate structures using pop sticks, tooth picks, Lego, blocks, anything. I saw an autistic guy draw detailed sketches of cities by memory. You need to find your skill.
You dont need friends, although it helps, you really need support and assisstance. You dont need to change your life, you need to find what makes it worth living.
I am on the autism spectrum too! I’m not going to bullshit and say that I am doing wonderful and I constantly have suicidal temptations, but I have discovered the strengths that I do have and one of those strengths is I am a good writer to vent and use comedy about how I feel about things! Being on the autism spectrum/having Asperger’s has caused me to discover why I’m so interesting! Isn’t the weather horrible where you live? I hate hot weather with a passion! It’s nice and cold here! Right now, the temperature is -2° c, 29°f. I live in the only country in the world that doesn’t use the metric system!
yes the weather sucks in my country but cant do anything about it cause i am too poor to go abroad
Have you ever heard of the “Law of Attraction”? There is plenty of information available online. I wish that I could say that I am so happy about everything, but it has made a big difference! Instead of focusing on being “poor”, focus on more money flowing into your life! The best place to start is with Abraham Hicks. You have the power and freedom to look into this new and improved reality! At least you have inter-net, so you have the ability to find out more about Abraham Hicks!
if you had an IQ of 50 you would not even be able to type or comprehend speech, that is EXTREME mental retardation as the typical retarded person has an IQ of 70. at 50 they would be unable to take care of themselves or function independently at that point.
you’re pretty good looking to be honest.
Autistic people are actually shown to have more intelligent than normal people, being autistic just means you are socially inept and can’t read body language or social cues. that’s also why a lot of the stereotypical “nerds” are shown to be awkward and weird, because they’re on the spectrum and being like that is common with people who have excessive intelligence.
First of all, your IQ is higher than 50. It’s at least average, probably high, since you’re pretty articulate. You look good, dude.
Sorry life sucks right now. But you aren’t worthless or pointless, OK?
Good luck man….
BTW, my brother’s autistic and he’s a fucking genius. You sound like a legitimately smart dude. Just depressed.
Yo, somebody from aamar shonar bangla! What’s your country’s problem with India dude? The defeat in cricket world cup quarterfinal was legitimate. I wish Bangladesh was still part of India; that way it could’ve developed much better.
dont ask me anything about my country I dont like any part of it so I want nothing to do with it… I hope oneday I will make enough money to escape from this hell hole oneday…