I made a terrible mistake in life. It’s affected me tremendously over the past 2 years. I am ashamed of my past situation, embarrassed with the present, and fearful of the future.
7 years ago, I accepted a job with the federal government. The organization I worked for has a bad reputation with the public. Everyday you can find examples of governmental malfeasances that happen in the news.
The agency that I worked for was TSA. I am so deeply ashamed of myself for working there, because of the bad reputation with the public. Myself and others who have worked their have been verbally and psychologically abused by our bosses over the years. We were treated like dirt, the lowest of low.
I quit this job 4.5 months ago (without having another job lined up) and took some time off just to get away from it. Leaving that place was the best thing that I’ve ever done.
Now I fear that no one will ever want to hire me again after working for TSA. My family and friends say this is not true. I am so ashamed of myself for working at TSA that suicide might be the only available option in the long run
Do you know what it’s like to be so ashamed of yourself for (1) working for an employer with a bad reputation (2) enduring years of psychological abuse that counseling can’t help with??? (3) Sometimes it seems as though you can’t go on with your life??? Even when you truly want to make a new start.
I have thought about suicide over the last year, and am considering this option in the near future. The shame and embarrassment has become overbearing. My family would be better off if I were dead.
2 comments
There is no need to be ashamed for you sexual desires and actions. In fact masturbating a few times a week or having sex is good for men, as it relieves stress and tension. Any man who says that he doesn’t do this at some time in his life is a liar.
Your mother handled this situation very poorly. First, your mother should not have disclosed your personal situation to anyone else. Second, your family should not break down the bathroom door to embarrass or humiliate you.
If a person does have an extreme addiction to masturbation, consulting a professional counselor is a better option, as they are able to help you mitigate your dependency on masturbation; and move forward. Best of all, a good counselor will be professional, confidential, and supportive.
Why is it your fault that the TSA has a bad reputation? Did you personally abuse and mistreat people?
Consider that ex convicts and drug addicts are able to get hired… I don’t believe being a former TSA worker carries more stigma than those two groups?