Basically.. My birth mother was a fucking drug addict. She did cocaine while being pregnant with me. Therefore I was born with a congenital heart defect called hypo plastic left heart syndrome (basically I was born without the left side of my heart.) I lived with that piece of shit until I was 8 years old. She physically abused me everyday, very harshly. I was never good enough. At 8 years old I moved in with my father. May 1st 2010 I had a heart transplant. On my 12th birthday I was diagnosed with cancer. My father is very verbally abusive. When he found out about my depression/cutting he would laugh at me. He never fails to remind me what a fucked up worthless person I am. He frequently tells me to kill myself.
The other night, he chocked me.. on the way to my therapy appt. I told my therapist. In school yesterday social services showed up along with a bunch of police officers and detectives. I was interviewed. My dad was arrested. I stayed with a friend, her mother called screaming at me saying I cant stay there any longer. I have an order of protection against my dad. I have no where to go, no where to live. Thats why I took pills tonight.
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oh. . . that really sucks. i’m sorry *hug*
i mean it. i’m really really sorry.
Yeh that sounds like a tragic life and you’re in the worst place to be. Just remember there is always a way of of every situation. If you make it through, someone’s looking out for you. You need to move away from those creeps!! Get as far away as you can and start living the way you want to. You can do it on your own. Many people have before… Many people will after. It’s easy to say… And I know how Lonely being alone can be. I left home at 16. If you want help, reach out and I’ll do what I can. I’ve helped many a broken bird to fly.
That sounds horrible and I understand the way you feel, I’ve had things like this happen to me and with the right help I did get out of it and so can you