Um, hi. So I’ve been visiting this site for a quite a few months now and finally feel like I dont want to lurk in the shadows any more. Perhaps its because my bf of seven years just broke up with me and I finally feel like I seriously want to end it now. Maybe I am just an attention seeking weakling that should just get over it… idk. All I do know is that I feel different about suicide now. Before the thoughts were scary but now they offer a sense of comfort. Planing different ways I could do it is more exciting to me than planing a future. Anyways hope this post isn’t too abnoxious.
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Never feel bad for how you feel. Heart break sucks. It really does. It’ll make you feel like you’ve lost everything because after being with someone for so long, you tend to forget how you ever lived without them. You’re left to rebuild from what feels like nothing. It may not ever be easy, but it gets slightly less difficult with time. Just take it on day at a time. Hang in there. Keep fighting. You never know what could happen tomorrow. Could be shit. But it could be a life changer. Don’t ever let anyone make you feel like less of a person for feeling a certain way and don’t ever think that you’re problems are insignificant.
One of the reasons he left is because im depressed and have bad anxiety. He must have felt so frustrated not knowing how to help me but this just made it ten times worse. How could he just give up on me. I feel so betrayed. He was the one person I really trusted. Ive told him things that nobody else on the face of the planet knows about me. I don’t get it I was there for him through his battle with depression and anxiety. I put all my problems aside to help and support him and he just leaves me. I loved him so much!
In some cases, no matter how hard we try we just aren’t enough. That hurts like hell. But you’re not alone. I know it feels that way most of the time, but when no one else is there, we’ve got your back. In time you’ll pick up what’s left of your heart and soul and you’ll build a new empire. But in the mean time, just remember that we’re here for you. When you feel like breaking, we’ll help you rebuild. Don’t give up just yet.
I understand how you feel. I’m in the same boat as you. My fiancée broke up our engagement and 5 1/2 year relationship. She then went back to her ex-husband, the one she left in order to be with me in the first place. Now she and her 3 kids I helped raise for almost 6 years, have abandoned me and also completely erased me from their lives. I will never see them ever again.
And yet I spend every second of every day longing to see them and talk to them. That desire to be with them is constant and never-ending. The pain and anguish I feel over this is just too much to bear. I have lost my will to live.
I hope you still have yours, because if you do, you might be able to survive.
I can understand you. I didn’t have her for 7 years, but she was my first gf.
I loved her, and trusted her more than everyone together in my entire life.
It the end she left me because she’s afraid to be without me for 3 months.
I was there for her, like you were there for him. In her dark moments, I was the light on her face.
Always and forever like that for 6 months.
But after she broke up with me, I went into depression. But now after a bit of time, I understand one thing.
I still love her a lot, and wish she never have left me. But what I understood is, she’s not the right one for me. She left me 2 weeks before we were suppose to meet, and went back to her ex.
Sammi6xoxo, I know you might not believe what I’m gonna say, but I guess he wasn’t the right one for you. You are way to good for him. You were there for him, he wasn’t. I’m sorry if it hurts you, but I feel the same.
Just give it time, find someone (either in real life or in the internet) you can share stuff with.
I promise you, you will feel better in time :).