Not sure what to say as I know this post is only for me to feel better briefly. Guess I’ll just say I’m tired of trying and going back to square one every time. I know it’s how I see the world. I know it’s my brain ‘chemistry’.
I wonder why there can be two people with the same mental illness, the same struggles, and only one commits suicide. What makes the other person stronger?
It’s weird what sets me into a downward spiral now. I’ve pushed everyone away & out of my life and I’m not even sure why.
Guess I just feel completely hopeless. I’ve tried for a long time and fought against myself, but it’s tiring now and I don’t really see the purpose of it. Luckily, I have no spouse, no children, and family lives in another state.
One thing I wish people (the so-called ‘normal’ people) would try to understand is that it’s not a “pity-party”, it’s not choosing to be down or depressed; it just is. People don’t choose cancer, and people don’t choose mental illness.
Even though it’s tiring for a family member or friend to deal with a person who is mentally ill, just think how tired the sufferer is.
That’s it.
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Two people with the same illness are still two different people.
It doesn’t have to mean the other person is stronger, just different.
They might or might not do it, for certain reasons and not always because they are stronger.
‘normal’ people are silly. They refuse to understand things because it’s too much effort for them to change the way they think.
Yeah. People just don’t get it. They have to deal with the person who is suffering only for a tiny bit, and they can just get back to their buisness normally later. It’s the suffering person who has to deal with it 24/7 for as long as they have it.
normal people just know how to do bitching