who am I kidding

Sigh. It’s been a year since I first started being depressed…it’s only been 3 weeks after my attempt to commit suicide…no one seems to understand why I’m like this…yes I made a lot of mistakes…yes I screwed up a lot…what hurts most is that everytime I’m depressed or going through a bad episode and start to cut myself people say I do it for attention…and every time I pretend to be okay people hate me I feel like there’s no rreason me to be here if being depressed and pretending to be okay will hurt me so much. Things are never going to be better than before…I’m just another useless burden to others waiting for a quick way to kill myself…