Why do I keep thinking of the consequences and guilt whenever I’m on top of a building or anywhere I could jump?
Having a drug-user(plus unforgettable hatred) father, unstable mother, brother with anger management issue, another brother with high IQ and a depressed girlfriend is hard.
And now I’m bitching on the internet about it. I suck.
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I suppose your nature provided programmed will to survive 🙁
Haha. I think so too but it’s kind of suffocating. You want to end it all but just can’t.
And I do think everyone has a will to survive. All organisms do. Even if it’s small.
Organism are programmed to live, its instinctual. But wanting to live or die is totally a different matter.
When I read this post, I can tell you are a strong ass person. Being able to ***** about things on the internet is therapeutic, but you are right, can be pathetic as well. I don’t think your pathetic for this. This site was mainly made for helping eachother, I suppose. Its working, for some, others, are new. Take a stroll around this place, and what do you see? People with broken homes, people who are suicidal and people who have hope.
I have hope for you mranony.
Wow. Thank you very much. 🙂
I do hope we all find happiness.
You don’t suck. You think that you suck but you don’t. You have been through a lot and you probably consider yourself weak but just by living you’re strong.
Thank you very much 🙂