If any of you know who I am, you know that when I was 14, last year, I tried to kill myself by swallowing 60+ pills. I was in the hospital for a week. Besides that, I want to tell you what it was like going back to school, and back to social media.
Being back to school was different. I was different. I was much more different than I give credit for. Either way, people took notice of me. I was the talk of the school for a whole month. People watched me like halks. Sympathetic looks? I’ve seen a million. People could be mean, however they never said it to my face.
I’m sure you all know what ask.fm is, so, I’ll get to the point of this. I was bullied immensely on Ask.fm.
I will tell you some of the things that were sent to me.
Anonymous: if you don’t succeed, try try again.
Anonymous: I hope next time it works.
Anonymous: I wish it worked.
Anonymous: Die *****. Kill yourself. Again lmao
I want to say something. I did try to kill myself yes. But I am just like everyone else. I am normal, I am human. I was a human that couldn’t bear the pain anymore and tried to take it away, so why punish me?
I hate social media. Besides this site, the only social media I use are Twitter,Wattpad and facebook. I wont use anything where people can hate anonymously like cowards that can’t have the courage to say it to my face. I have no respect for people who tell other people to kill themselves online, or in the real world. Its pathetic, its rude and it’s wrong.
Please don’t let yourself be the victim of online bullying, you are better than that.
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Hey there T. Yeah social media is a weird phenomenon. Anonymity brings out the worst in humans, just look at the roads at rush hour. But there are a rare few online communities that develop a genuine nice vibe. SP is at the top of the list.
What’s funny is I’ve seen 1 or 2 trolls wander in here in the past, and the SP regulars usually give him a sound thrashing before booting him off the site forever. It’s a protective little community, and that’s all we need to feel sometimes.
Very true, Salt. SP has been helping me reach out to others, really. I’ve seen trolls here in the past, however, I am happy to have found a nice place where I can feel like a normal human being and not a deranged creature from a young childs closet.
Being a victim of online hate is a hard thing to cope with. Mainly because it hurts, but who knows who could be doing it? It could be your bestfriend. That’s the truly scary part of it all.
You said it… online bullying is brutal. Another downside is, due to not knowing your enemy, you start thinking your enemy is *everyone*. So 1 internet bully loser turns into the entire human race. Add paranoia, mix vigorously… and boom.
Anyway, I think this is a great post, and I hope victims of online bullying read it and realize that they are better than the bullies. Truly a cut above.
Just a funny tip I learned about dealing with internet bullies. You can turn the tables on them and have some fun. The key is NOT to engage them in anything they say about you, but instead look for their weakness and keep jabbing. For example…
Bully: Die *****. Kill yourself. Again lmao
You: Aw, poor baby. Did I make you cry?
Bully: STFU your stupid
You: Here, come and give aunti T a big hug and let your tears roll down those chubby cheeks.
Bully: DIE DIE DIE!!
You: There there, does that feel better? I’ll take you for ice creams after
etc etc etc
Ha I know it’s not exactly the moral high road, but hell it can be a lot of fun. Try it next time 🙂
You always know what to say Salt. Had me laughing there.
Good for you. Great post. I do believe that the human species is spliting into the evolved and compassionate/and the mean and backwards.
Welcome to the evolved side.
I’m a 71 year old suicidal survivor and I want to help others know that there is hope, not only hope, but, once that suicidal shell is cracked open, the possibility for joy is there. In my elder years, I’ve never been happier. I no longer have to live up to expectations that are not part of who I am. And no more high school cruelty!
My heart goes out to all who have been abused on social media. The teen years are hard enough without someone dumping tar all over you.
Keep up your spirit and welcome to the survivors group!
Its kind of odd I went through the exact same thing except I was 11 when I first tried to end it all. I never really had much of a issue with online bullying. Though I was bullied severely verbally and physically in my middle school and high school years. My senior year of high school I no longer cared what people thought of me and surprisingly all that drama just melted away. I still have issues today and I’m 20 now. Just hold your head high sweetheart.
Thank you <3
Wow, your post gave me immense hope for my future. I realize I am only 15, but I do feel like I am older. (Having mental illness does that to ya!)
I am very happy being able share things and help people out.
Never seen or experienced online bullying. Sorry if you have.
Eventually, someday I will not care what people say, it takes time, but I have to try.
Heyyy its okay you’re strong please don’t kill yourself please I know people are mean but please don’t kill yourself..please I too suffer those things I was treaten and stuff on ask.fm but someone told me to come here…just please don’t kill yourself okay please stay strong 🙂
I had the same thing 🙂 I got bullied for about year, my ex gf made my whole laugh at me. everyone was making jokes with private stuff, and I started drinking. Several times, teachers didn’t even notice that I was tipsy even during school time. It slowly became my routine to get drunk before/after school..even tho I was only 16. I couldn’t cope with everyone making fun of me on Ask.fm and at school…but, things are getting better now 🙂 People really don’t understand how some words can make people want to die….and some other words make people happy 🙂 you’re awesome. Hold in there!