I know how you feel. I’ve reached the point where I’m only a few days away from (hopefully) my very last attempt, and I still wish to go sooner. Every morning I wake up, it feels like a defeat. Every night I go to sleep I wish I don’t wake up. That my heart would just stop working. I mean, judging from the pain I’m in it should just explode. No reason for it to keep beating, except to prolong my agony. So I’m reduced to taking it into my own hands. I wish I could avoid that, but there is no other way.
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You know what is sad? I have a pacemaker that my doctor helped me, even though I can’t pay.
Save my heart… Why??
But that is why were are- to find out our value.
You are worthy of finding what you need to be happy. I’m sorry you’re hurting.
One day at a time.
Be kind to you.
Listen to your pain.
Find people who listen.
Never give up.
I know how you feel. I’ve reached the point where I’m only a few days away from (hopefully) my very last attempt, and I still wish to go sooner. Every morning I wake up, it feels like a defeat. Every night I go to sleep I wish I don’t wake up. That my heart would just stop working. I mean, judging from the pain I’m in it should just explode. No reason for it to keep beating, except to prolong my agony. So I’m reduced to taking it into my own hands. I wish I could avoid that, but there is no other way.
I feel like you. living day by day sadly. Doing suicide is a very difficult work. First attempts many times fails.
Tomorrow came unfortunately. Another day, worse than yesterday…
Same. If tomorrow comes, I can only hope for it to be better than today.