Update

Hey I’ve decided the plan of killing myself on the 25th is not going ahead. In my other post I talked a lot about a guy who I lost only to find out that he got with another girl 2 days after we broke up.. I was sad about it and it made me think that he couldn’t of loved me that much :/ it would of been a year I was with him but hes moved on and I’m kinda happy for him because hes happy.. I have this guy friend who’s like my bestfriend he has been there for me a lot through everything that has gone on and I feel better with him around he makes me feel better and happier. I still have feelings for my ex but my boy bestfriend I think I’m starting to like him more because I did like him before I got with my ex and we became close we are literally the same people 🙂 I feel kinda down though cause I want tell him but dont want to wreck the friendship and I also dont want to tell him about some of the thoughts of suicide I get :/ someone give me advice I dunno if ts because hes there or if I actually like him 🙁