I can’t sleep…but I’m so tired. I’ve been lying in bed for a long-time just thinking. I want to just go for a walk right now. It’s after midnight and there’s a curfew in my town but I have this urge to just walk around town. I want to pass the place I plan to die at…just pass it. If I get caught by the cops that would not be good though because I have no good excuse.
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I never heard of curfews in towns. Why does your town have one? Seems really weird to me… Like a movie! Do you live in a violent place?
(I’m sorry this reply is late) The township I live in is generally really safe. The curfew only applies to minors (like myself). “Minors shall not loiter, idle, or congregate, in any public place or open business open to the public during curfew hours unless accompanied by the parent or someone delegated by the parent”. I guess it’s just to keep minors safe. This town is too boring to be like a movie haha (:
A walk always helps you think. Honestly, your situation kinda gives me a weird feeling. I wish I had an urge to walk around but instead I just don’t go out at all. There’s always people outside and for me that’s a good enough reason to stay inside. I have social anxiety and it’s kinda hard to be around people. I mean, in my neighborhood there’s no curfew (that I know of) but still…….
Sometimes, what I do is I write. I write whatever comes to mind. It calms me down. I can write my thoughts and stuff. Also, you could maybe talk to yourself. I do that sometimes so I can understand my thoughts and that way I can process them. Think it through. I mean you wanna be alone but you always have someone with you; you.
Going for a walk late at night has always been my thing because of the fact that late at night there aren’t a whole lot of people around and it takes my mind off of things for a little while. Maybe you could try it. I can relate to what you said about having social anxiety. I personally am not diagnosed but I wouldn’t be surprised if I was because I can relate to a lot of the symptoms. That’s good that writing helps you. Writing things down is a good, healthy, way to let everything that’s bottled up inside come out. I personally don’t really write in real life much anymore because I’d worry too much that someone would discover what I wrote. Thanks for sharing your thoughts.