Pending….

Today is a day I don’t want to live

I don’t want to breath

I don’t want to smile

Thinking is out of the question

I want to cry and scream

I go through so many days just doing life

When I sit down and think about life

I drop

My mental thoughts decline

my smile fades to tears

I lose it

spending time on my own is bad

i decline to suicide

Death is pending

life is lengthy

I feel i have done my amount of time containing all the hurt i need

the broken hearts are unbearable

My life needs to stop

But i breath through another day