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I told my parents that I wanted to kill myself today. They forced me to tell them why, it was hard telling them and to be honest I didn’t tell them the whole story. I don’t feel any different, I thought telling them would help but it didn’t. I still want to kill myself. They said we’d talk as a whole family tomorrow but I don’t. I’m really thinking about ending it tonight. I’m in to much pain here, maybe the other wprld will make me feel better.


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vedura 6/27/2015 - 4:52 am

I am a long time survivor of attempted suicide, at age 71. Please tell your parents, from me, that to survive you need professional medical help. Lack of family love, acceptance and support can contribute to that pain and depression, but family love cannot cure it. This is a medical issue. I know. My first therapist literally saved my life. He was the first person to validate the real me, a very important matter.

I wish you health and wellness. It’s a hard battle but can be fought and won.

rickrick5 6/27/2015 - 5:05 am

If you told your parents then I think you just want attention. Those who really want to kill themselves plan instead of telling their parents.

Therapy time for you. And “talk as a whole family ” I think it means “mental ward”.

vedura 6/27/2015 - 6:10 am

I told my mother that I wanted to die when I was in my teens. She responded “no you don’t, that’s ridiculous.” I turned to her because she was my mother and I thought she might be able to help me.
When I finally did try and ended up in a psyche ward, my mother told my therapist that I had always been dramatic. My therapist told my mother “your daughter’s drama almost killed her, don’t you think it would be wise to do something about this?”
What I’m trying to convey is that telling your parents is not necessarily an attention gaining act if you are hoping they can help.
Rickrick5, in the above comment is projecting his own motives onto you. He might be right. But he also might be wrong.
Both of us, however, believe you need professional medical help.

sydsilvey 6/28/2015 - 2:03 am

Your a selfish man

SoTired 6/27/2015 - 7:49 am

Ignore RickRick5. Telling your parents was a brave step, and means that while you are in a world of pain there is also a little bit of hope. So give them a chance to help you and be as honest as you can handle to be. And yes, I agree with Vedura that it’s a medical issue and you will need outside help no matter how well meaning your parents are. That does not automatically or even likely mean psych ward. But hopefully it will be the beginning of the long and winding road to recovery. I’ve been in this road for a long time so I know, and I’m also a mum, so I know that I’d do anything to help my kids if they were ever to come to me and be in this kind of pain. But nobody will be able o really help you unless you’re honest. All the best!

rickrick5 6/27/2015 - 9:42 am

sydsilvey, Just ignore SoTired. If you told your parents, it means you want them to stop you, so you are not suicidal in the first place. What you are feeling is either depression or something.

rickrick5 6/27/2015 - 9:46 am

Another thing, don’t mistake bravery for stupidity. It is like saying suicide bombing is bravery, no it is not, nor is telling your parents.

Salt 6/27/2015 - 10:07 am

“Ignore RickRick5.”

Best advice I’ve heard all month. In practice, it’s good to ignore anyone who comes around bullying suicidal kids, encouraging people to take ******** (after killing their neighbor’s dog with it), and basically projecting his own hopeless, failed life upon others. Moderators, in my years at this site I haven’t bothered you once, but please consider banning that dipstick before he causes some damage to someone other than himself.

Sidsyley, you’re damn brave. Anyone can sit there feeding off their own pain without admitting they need help. But it takes major guts to connect with others and try to fight it with help. Listen to the respected members of this community, the long time survivors \as well as anyone with positivity to share like vedura & SoTired. Give your parents a chance to digest what you said and hear them out. It’s a lot to handle, finding out that their child is on the verge of death. Don’t let the assplugs on this site (singular: assplug) bring you down with them. You’re stronger than that, and I think you can beat this!

rickrick5 6/27/2015 - 7:20 pm

Yeah right Salt, call me dipstick assplug, huh. whatever. And what do you do, cry to Moderator because my words hurt your feelings???

vedura 6/28/2015 - 12:08 am

Thank you, Salt, for your comments on Rick. I dont’ know why he’s allowed to stay on this website.

theWhispersOfMySins 6/27/2015 - 9:57 am

Every site gets a troll now and then and apparently rickrick is this ones. Please ignore his comments as others have also advised. It is brave to tell people you are suicidal. Especially people like your parents. It was a huge step and I am glad you took it. I do know someone who reached out only to suicide a short time later so the comment that you arent suicidal is ridiculous. Only you know how you feel so don’t listen to anyone else. Please continue to reach out and get the help you need. Give things a chance to get better. Hugs.

sydsilvey 6/27/2015 - 7:03 pm

RickRick5, I only told my parents because they found out I was following suicidal people. I didn’t have a choice or not to tell them, they new something was wrong, but I didn’t tell them the whole truth

vedura 6/28/2015 - 12:07 am

You should tell your parents if they are good people. For heavens sake, don’t listen to RickRick5. I don’t know his motivation, but he’s not the type of person who should be on this website. His comments are not kind, and that is one of the rules for this website. Rick, if you don’t like the rule, please go elsewhere.

rickrick5 6/27/2015 - 7:14 pm

sydsilvey, I see. So what are your plans?

BTW, to all those haters, why are you all so closed minded? sydsilvey is a young lad, he need to know the truth about the world, both the good and the bad. You cannot just say “things will get better, that is just silly and delusional. Things will get both good and bad, but not equally.

All the things I say here are the facts. If you cant handle the truth then something is wrong with you.

sydsilvey 6/28/2015 - 2:05 am

My plans for what? To kill myself?

rickrick5 6/27/2015 - 7:26 pm

Salt, are you saying dipsticks and assplugs deserve to die? So now you decide who dies and who lives? Wow.

Littered 6/27/2015 - 7:29 pm

I think Vedura hit the nail on the head. The reason why you didn’t feel better is because it is a medical issue and “Lack of family love, acceptance and support can contribute to that pain and depression, but family love cannot cure it.”
And yes, things WILL get better with the right help.

rickrick5 6/27/2015 - 7:40 pm

And Salt, why are you such a big fan of mine? Apparently you read all the posts but I don’t even read yours.

Whenever I see posts for you and others, I don’t bother reading them.

Hjerteblomst 6/27/2015 - 8:18 pm

Please ignore rickrick5. He/she is a troll. If we all ignore the troll hopefully he/she will get bored and go away. Please do not reply to their posts, but let people know that this troll gives ‘advice’ which is not helpful at all, in fact, it could make people feel worse about themselves.

ps: don’t bother replying. I don’t feed trolls.

rickrick5 6/27/2015 - 9:17 pm

That is exactly correct Hjerteblomst.

Just ignore messages you don’t want to read. If you see a post from me “rickrick5” then ignore it. I do the same to most of the posters here.

Are we all good now?

sydsilvey 6/28/2015 - 2:07 am

I understand why most people tell me to ignore you, but your addicting.

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