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Suicidal Stories #1

by brxken._.lxcks 4/21/2016

written by brxken._.lxcks

I’m going to start writing stories about suicide on here. And this is going to be my first one. (by the way, the reason why I used veil so much was because I had originally wrote this for one of my homework assignments, and oh well if some parts don’t make sense)

Every day she would walk the halls veiled. She would wear a big smile, but the smile was never real. She wouldn’t bother anybody; she would sit quietly. She would have her nose in a notebook she would draw or write in. If she wasn’t using her notebook, she would always get lost in […]

4/21/2016 2 comments

I Hate my Mind

by Zetsumei 4/16/2016

written by Zetsumei

*is watching Jacksepticeye and Markiplier streaming videos then somehow finds ex streaming on twitch* Fml… If a big-breasted Asian gamer girl couldn’t snap me out of my depression… I guess there is no hope for salvation and I don’t think she’ll forgive me if I blame my “whininess” on clearly psychotic episodes…

So, besides ending it, does anyone have any ways to beat depression when you’re too apathetic to even eat?

4/16/2016 12 comments

Need to leave

by goodbye4now 4/11/2016

written by goodbye4now

Everyday I constantly think about ending it and I can’t stand it. I think now is the time to go. I don’t want to leave my family and friends but I don’t want to live in a world where I have to fake all my emotions to everyone. I tried to tell them but they ignored me. Nobody will take me seriously.

I want to leave today.

4/11/2016 3 comments

Fuck this shit can’t take it anymore I’m at my end

by Sui the Bunny 4/4/2016

written by Sui the Bunny

So I’ve been crying for the last hour overdon’t the shit my brother threw at me all his words nasty bitter angry words… Saying I can’t do this can’t do that I’m not doing anything. Everything I do is wrong I’m never right I’m stupid never gonna get a job. Useless, worthless leach. I fucking stood up to him to some degree before the tears came rolling in I feel like clawing skin till it burns and bleeds I need to feel pain I want to feel pain. But I feel nothing I feel empty cold and bitter I’m numb from his words. I’m so […]

4/4/2016 18 comments

Wondering about Sportsnut

by Cordless 3/28/2016

written by Cordless

Ok, for those of you who have been wondering, I was able to piece together the following timeline regarding sportsnut. If any of you know more than what I’ve found here, please share, so we can stop wondering/worrying.

On Easter Sunday, he sent email and text to some of us saying that he was thinking of ending it. The one he sent me arrived at about 5:30 eastern time. I didn’t end up logging in that day until about three hours later, so I didn’t get to respond when it was still new. I responded when I saw it, but he never answered.

Also on Easter, he […]

3/28/2016 45 comments

Protected: Doublethink

by whiskered-fish 3/24/2016

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

3/24/2016 19 comments

kbking6

by Ylem 2/2/2016

written by Ylem

I made a friend in the last few weeks here on SP. A friendship forged out of mutual understanding of emotional turmoil.

The last time I talked to him, he was going through a very rough patch. He couldn’t deal with his pain and was on the verge of ending it. In fact, he had tried to make an attempt, but somehow couldn’t go through with it. I tried to talk him out of it. I doubt it worked.

I haven’t heard from him in over a week, and I’m really worried. I think I failed him.

King, if you are still out there, roaming the streets of […]

2/2/2016 6 comments

Back again

by Matel 1/6/2016

written by Matel

After about a month or so I’m back to SP with my suicidal thoughts. Is this a surprise? Of course not. Have been reading SP since 2011, 5 years. When will this end? When I accept what happens to me and move on (god forbid), or i do the right thing and end my existence. I hope the latter happens. Soon, clean and unpainful. I know I won’t do it though, I have too many unknowns about ending it.

Back to SP 🙂 I like this place. As I’m writing this I feel a warm feeling as if I’m home. I like you guys too, I […]

1/6/2016 0 comment

i cant i cant

by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful) 12/20/2015

written by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful)

I cant do it this is stupid. Im too tired to move most of the time. Its a battle to not beat myself up all day. My best friend has stopped talking to me so she can kill herself and now ignores me im alone so im back here to be judged and picked apart. I want to die. Ive been suicidal for decadesm i should want to die. Im tires im sick my job is stressful. Everything is a suicide trigger I can’t stop over eatting. I am just scratching the surface I’m so angry i punch things at work randomly. Im undatable, uninteresting, […]

12/20/2015 0 comment

I dont know anymore…

by lostinthedesert 11/5/2015

written by lostinthedesert

*sigh*, I don’t even know how to begin. It’s not in our Hispanic culture to give up or speak about our feeling so I don’t know how to start this post.

I’ve always had thoughts of ending my life, but I’ve always been able to suppress them and put them in a corner. Now I just thought of giving up. I am 19 years old, fresh out of high school with no sense of purpose. I work 10 hour days which give me alot of time to think. I think about all my friends who have gone on to college and to […]

11/5/2015 1 comment

Anti-depressant Innovation

by Cateau 10/1/2015

written by Cateau

It is people with problems that have the solution to them (or alternative to ending it in our cases). What would you like to see patent pending for antidepressant innovation? I saw once on RT news word of a “euthanasia roller coaster” and was ….disturbed by it. But it got me thinking about an idea to soothe those evil thoughts of dying without riding a death coaster (no its not a real thing…yet). My invention would be a clip on nose ring that emits whatever smell calms you down… because who can be upset when there’s lavander in the air? But if that fails i […]

10/1/2015 2 comments

I hate my life

by lost2828 9/28/2015

written by lost2828

My life is literally one huge fucking mess. I have no direction whatsoever, I can’t decide for the life of me what I even want to do with this shitty life of mine. I’m a walking contradiction, I can never make any fucking decisions, probably because I can never visualise a positive outcome of any situation ever because my life is so fucking shit. Nothing at all makes me happy, I have no fucking hobbies because I’m too much of a lazy coward to ever put my mind to anything. I have a shitty, dead end retail job which makes my hate my pathetic life […]

9/28/2015 2 comments

so i think i’m defective…..

by pixiekins 9/15/2015

written by pixiekins

Hey, so I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m defective. Nothing I try and do changes how I feel I should just end it all. Its been this way for as long as I can remember just a constant over whelming feeling that I’m not suppose to survive this thing we call life. I’m not trying to wallow, nothing majorly traumatic has happened in my life its just my serious and honest opinion. Ending it would be so easy but I can’t seem to get that right as I said I’m defective. I thought I was ready tonight then time got away with me and […]

9/15/2015 8 comments

Goodbye f’d up world.

by Schiz018 8/24/2015

written by Schiz018

So in 3 to 4 weeks I’m ending it just have to do a test run then gain the balls to just end it. I don’t give a fuck or a rats are anymore. Not even sure why I was born the only sucky thing is my family are going to have to bury me with no photo or nothing. I’m over family and parents. They only give a shit about themselves and haven’t once begun to understand mental illness. Funny thing is its going to have to be a burden to bury me or cremate me for my family. Cold heartless family.

Well 3-4weeks then […]

8/24/2015 4 comments

What now

by noroots 7/25/2015

written by noroots

3 months ago my fiance and I got into a fight and he pushed me. We had been together 9 years and nothing like this had ever happened before. We have a son together and he is truly the love of my life. I was freaked out when he pushed me and called my mother to come get us. This was the biggest mistake I could have made. The next morning I woke up in my mothers house still upset from the fight. She was being very pushy with me and ended up calling an expensive lawyer and the police without my consent. She embellished […]

7/25/2015 3 comments

Temporary

by persephone 7/15/2015

written by persephone

Ever notice how everything is temporary.? Love, LIFE, happines etc… But depression, depression is forever it seems like. I wish it was temporary. I wish it was as easy to end depression as it is to end happiness. Depression will always be with me, and it sucks to know that. Because I am alone, even with so many people around I am alone. So I ask myself since everything is temporary what’s wrong with ending it early.? Then what would they all do.? Bury me and griev temporarily.. but my soul is will feel nothing, and I’d much rather feel numb, feel nothing at all […]

7/15/2015 0 comment

Mismatched?

by anonymous41201 7/10/2015

written by anonymous41201

The world seems to hate me nowadays. My mom andd dad were divorced when I was five and and then my world turned upside down when my lazy ass stepmom moved in. I had to learn how to take care of myself and my brother with no help, and now I’m 15 and have had to be in the hospital three times already. It’s not like I want to cut, but no matter how hard I try, I alway end up hidden behind long sleeves as bandages on my wrists. I cut myself a few minutes ago, and I’m really thinking about ending it. It all […]

7/10/2015 2 comments

It’s time

by bayareaguy 7/8/2015

written by bayareaguy

No more heart or diabetes meds………..time to let nature take its course. I flushed them all down the toilet.

I’m not angry or seeking to hurt anyone. What I am, is lonely to the point of exhaustion. There is nothing out “there” because there is nothing in “here”, no value, no worth and no reason to exist. I know it sounds dramatic, but I just want to rest, to sleep and be at peace.

I could be here for days, weeks, months or even years more. I don’t know.

There was an actor named George Sanders. His most famous film, I would say, was All About Eve, which […]

7/8/2015 3 comments

Irony at it’s finest

by strange_insane 7/4/2015

written by strange_insane

It’s ironic, really. I helped people for most of my life, be it in person or on the web, trying to get them to rethink their life choices, telling them it’s all right, and that suicide isn’t the answer. I guess now I know how they felt when the foot is on the other shoe. I truly am weak, pathetic, and stupid, and I have just proved them right.

I will be ending it shortly tomorrow. I have made letters stating my amends with all individuals I have wronged in my life and a goodbye letter to my love. My worldly possessions will be given away […]

7/4/2015 3 comments

Truth

by sydsilvey 6/27/2015

written by sydsilvey

I told my parents that I wanted to kill myself today. They forced me to tell them why, it was hard telling them and to be honest I didn’t tell them the whole story. I don’t feel any different, I thought telling them would help but it didn’t. I still want to kill myself. They said we’d talk as a whole family tomorrow but I don’t. I’m really thinking about ending it tonight. I’m in to much pain here, maybe the other wprld will make me feel better.

6/27/2015 21 comments

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