I started smoking cigarettes a few months back and found myself becoming addicted to nicotine (as you’d expect). I find that giving in to the addiction helps, when you’re craving something and you get it you tend to feel better, even if just for a short time. The idea is based around something I saw in trainspotting, the main character says that when you’re on heroin all you worry about is scoring and when you’re off it you start to worry about a whole lot of other things. I know there is a great difference between a heroin addiction and a nicotine one but they are both addictions. Basically if you’re not smoking or vaping all the time then when you do you will feel good, like you’ve made your goal of getting the thing you crave. No idea what others will think of this but I’m saying this to just get my own experience of it out there, not to get people to start smoking or vaping so don’t get angry at me expressing my opinion.
Ya I think we all need some hit of pleasure that makes life more enjoyable. I quit cold turkey when I tried smoking for a few weeks (in my early teens) because I liked it but didn’t want to get addicted and suffer all the negative health effects.
Not a bad idea though, maybe around the time I plan to seriously end my life, I’d dabble in the things I avoided, like smoking and trying some drugs that people are into, just for the sheer fun and pleasure of it. Though I did sign my organ donor card on my driver’s license so I don’t want to mess up my body too much before I go-and ruin the organs that others could use.
I realize doing such things helps you get your mind off your problems. Probably why so many people are into weed-but since there’s a strong correlation between marijuana and psychosis and brain damage, that’s the one thing I’m going to avoid till the end. Same reason I’m sure people are into alcohol, gambling and other things that stimulate the reward/pleasure centers of our brains.
I decided a short while ago that I can really go through with my suicide at this time, so rather than dwell over it, I threw myself back into the projects and goals that I want to complete. If they work out as I hope, my life should become really good and worth living-so I probably won’t think about death till I’m a fair bit older.
correction: that I cannot go through with my suicide…
I find weed helps greatly with depression but if you smoke it to escape problems too often then they come back to hit you when you aren’t smoking. I’m also saving trying some things for the end such as heroin, if it ruins my life then I’m already planning to end it so it wouldn’t matter as much.
in my experience it stops feeling good when it becomes how need to feel..if that makes sense…for example i cant stand being high in public but i have no idea how to socialize anymore without alcohol.