Anger

I guess I’m just angry about the fact that I feel like no-one cares about me. The people that I feel are my friends make me feel worthless. Even my best friend, who is the nicest person in the world, makes me feel like shit sometimes.
My mum is really strict, so I’m not allowed Facebook, or any kind of social media at all, so I find it hard to keep in contact with my friends. And none of them bother to keep in contact with me.
Before my best friend got Facebook, my other friends would still try and talk to me, to let me know about plans and stuff, but now they only invite her to do things and not me. It pisses me off because when I ask why I wasn’t invited, they just turn to me and say ‘oh, sorry, forgot you didn’t have Facebook’ or ‘well, we assumed someone would invite you’.
Am I such a shitty person that I deserve to be treated this way? Because I feel like absolute shit.
It’s times like these where I wonder would any of them miss me if I killed myself tonight. Would any of them care?
In the words of My Chemical Romance:
“But does anyone notice? But does anyone care?”
I don’t feel as thought I’ve made a big enough impression on anyone to be missed.