nothing irritates me more than being compared to others. If I say I’m a fuck up, don’t ask if I’m the most fucked up person in the world. If I am sad, don’t tell me “at least you aren’t homeless, broke, abused” whatever. Don’t tell me how people have it worse or how small and irrelevant my problems are. They’re still fucking issues that effect me. Don’t make me feel small, unnecessary, irrelevant. That is the most shallow thing someone can say to another person on a suicide website, a suicide network. Fuck you. Sadness isn’t a competition.
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I know – depression is so hard and I have been fighting it for some time now. I am trying to figure out how to catch the bus, it is getting over the hump of actually taking the step to kill myself. I had originally decided on taking sleeping pills, but just found some morphine tablets that I did not know I had that a friend game me when his mother was fighting cancer. I have about 25 of them. I think I may use these to help me catch the bus. Some people don’t understand that it is not about who is the saddest or who is worse off. The problems you are fighting are yours and are affecting you – others may seem to think it is nothing – but they have not walked in your shoes.
Sorry i didn’t reply sooner… I was mobile and your comment just didn’t ever feel like showing up thought it was posted prior to the others? anyway, we’re not really suppose to talk about methods on here so I won’t comment but I wish you luck with whatever. It’s definitely not about who is the saddest or worst off, like you said, your reactions are just what matter the mot.
Exactly,u r so right.Every man has his own poison to drink.To him his poison is the ultimate.We all have our own demons/depression to deal with.We can’t compare them with others.I don’t understand why some people give such kind of shallow advice.This is the last thing a poor depressed soul needs in his hour of pain.
Exactly it matters how it effects you not what the issue was. Like your reaction is what matters
I often compare myself with others and think I’m being ungrateful for feeling depressed/suicidal when others have it worse. I think it’s normal for someone who is depressed to feel guilty about being depressed/suicidal. But I agree with you that another person should not guilt-trip someone who is depressed and suicidal by saying “others have it worse.”
When I was younger, I use to look at people who have committed suicide or were contemplating suicide and think “they didn’t/don’t have it so bad.” I now realize that mental illness doesn’t discriminate and it doesn’t matter if you have everything in the world you can still feel like shit and want to die.
Thanks for bringing this up. I think everyone needs to know this and think before they say such things.
Yeah it’s way different to self blame and stuff. I compare myself to others constantly but if I’m venting because I’m genuinely upset I don’t wanna hear “so you think you’re the most fucked up person in the world”. All I did was list my major fuck ups in the past year because I was upset that I hit someone’s car today.
Dead! I’m really sorry to hear about your car accident today–I hope it wasn’t too major…
Anyways, I always like reading your posts, and I think what you’ve said is very true. I’m not really in an expressive mood, but I just thought I’d comment. Well, best of luck.
It wasn’t major, I just tapped a car parked in my driveway… my friends aren’t allowed to park in the driveway because my parents have both hit cars in our driveway… our driveway is set up weird I guess, but their friends are allowed to park in the driveway so I finally hit a car and my dad freaked out, mainly because it was a rental car. My car’s back bumper is kind of popped out and I need a new one. I can’t afford to fix everything on my car anymore. But regardless, there was like nothing on his car anyway, mainly my paint on his car that came off lmao. Just sucked and started thinking of how many times i’ve fucked up in the past year and had my mind spiraling that way.
thanks for liking my posts, I try not to post too much because I don’t really believe people like my stuff since they’re mostly just rants. I’ve been occasionally posting things like this, or I had a list of like things I learned by 19, but in the past before that they’ve been stupid things no one cares about.
Don’t feel bad. I backed up over a sign a few days ago. Didn’t even see it beforehand. I swear that seemingly stationary sign must have leapt into my path of travel.
Shit happens. Sometimes solid objects miraculously position themselves directly in your lane of travel. It happens. (Happened to me).
Pain is pain. I hate that too. Oh at least you have your eyes, ears, and can walk they tell me! Oh here’s one – “turn your life over to the Lord”. Lol I been a hardcore atheist since my early 20s. I was a miserable Christian and I am a miserable atheist. People make up religious fairy tales to try to give life meaning where there isn’t any. Most people can’t handle the fact that life is meaningless and a suicide mission in of itself (since we are all gonna die anyway). There is no heaven or hell nor any sort of afterlife – just eternal nothingness. I am smart so I just want to speed up the process and have control over my own death! Why would I want to wait around just to die of natural causes? Fuck nature! Nature is the reason we are in this mess….nihilistic and unforgiving. I fight against nature
You and I think alike. I hate nature too or whatever the fuck created me. I really hate my parents it seems I inherited The worst of them physically and mentally. I never met my father not even in pictures and my dumb mother died when I was only 6 years old. I only inherited their ugly looks . Then later on I discover that I also inherited a terrible illness.
That’s the worstttt, the whole religious aspect. Cool if someone believes in religion but like don’t rub it in my face because I could not care less about your fucking beliefs. It’s illegal to commit suicide because it’s against THE LAW TO DESTROY GOVERNMENT PROPERTY.
No it isn’t.You are relevant and i’m sure your heart knows this 🙂
It doesn’t matter what I think, just the fact people tell you that your problems don’t matter is low. Like how could you feel upset over something! at least you know where you’ll sleep tonight, or when your next meal will be, or whatever blah blah blah so sorry i apologize for knowing where I’ll sleep tonight ???????