I’m not even sure if I can tell what is real anymore. The last year is a blur. I lost my wife. I quit my job. I lost my drivers licence. And now I cant even walk.
Recently I picked a fight with the wrong guy who broke my nose and then my leg when i was on the ground. As I am getting the shit kicked out of me I yell “KILL ME” at my attacker who immediately stops. Him and his friends back away as I black out.
I wake up in extreme pain. My foot is pointing the wrong way and I call an ambulance. I can’t stand the pain in my leg. There is blood everywhere, its streaming quickly out of my nose. The police arive, I inform them that I dont want to press charges, what I want is morphine. I black out.
skip to now, I have a job which I can barely do. My parents are helping me but I feel terrible asking for money as they are just as broke as I am.
I am a broken man. The love of my life is gone and its my fault. She wont come back. I was about to start a good paying job before I got my leg broken, now I cant. My current job was boring when I could use both my legs. Now its almost impossible.
I cant do this anymore. I just cant. I know people love me, I know it would hurt them but I just cant keep going on this way. I know my leg will heal, I will just find a new and exciting way to fuck up my life again.
I dont think I can keep going anymore. Who would have thought a guy with as much potential as me would give up on life before he turned 26.