Heres my story i just need to talk to someone.
I will be 24 years old in a few weeks. I have lost everything. The love of my life left me 5 months ago. Im in so much pain but thats not even the start! It was all my fault she left. I have been hurt by 2 girls in the past i didnt open up my heart to this one soon enough! I was scared to get hurt again! I took her for granted and put my freinds first. Because i felt the would be the ones here for me in the end. I have been so depressed over the last 5 months no one wants to be around me but my family. I come from a great home my parents are still married one older sister and my family is very wealthy but thats not the point. I moved out of my home province to another at 21 to better my life and go to college. Im now a third year apprentice plumber and gas fitter and have accumilated 2 duis in 3 years. And had one back home when i was 18. After my girl left me i turned hard into the booze not caring for life anymore. I started taking steriods so i could get huge and feel better about my self but about a week ago made another huge mistake in my life. My freind drove my truck to the bar because my current licence situation i dont take chances and its not like me to get behind the wheel anymore. I had 2 shots and a beer. I seen some people i dont get along with and i guess you can call it roid rage i just snapped i got kicked out of the bar and i was blacked out from rage. My freind gave me my keys and i have no idea why he did that and im so mad. But i decided to drive from the bar. As soon as i pulled out a cop put on his sirens and i tried to get away because i had a suspended licence. I blacked out driving because i was so scared and mad. I woke up to being pulled out of my truck and being handcuffed. I was arrested for evading police and susspected drunk cause i left the bar. I blew over the limit and now my life is over. This will be my 3rd dui in 6 years and got charged with evading police. Im in so much trouble i guess i just need someone to talk to. I cant stand to see my parents face cause there so dissapointed in me but they are here to help me. Everyone says its all going to work out. But i cant see the end of the tunnel. Im going to fight my dui because i feel i was not drunk or over the limit. But im now looking at 25-30 grand in lawyer fees with no guarente to get off. Im losing my truck i lost the love of my life prior to this witch is all coming back and adding to this deppresion! Im looking at losing my job and my licence for 5 years plus 6 months in jail. Im so scared so ashamed because this is not me. It was the steriods. Please someone help im contemplating suicide everyday and i cant talk to anyone close about it cause all they want to do is lock ya up in the phsyc ward i guess thats why im on here. i cant get out of bed im up all night sleep all day im so depressed i guess im just waiting to talk to my lawyer before i make that desicion but what the point i now he is going to say im FUCKED! cause there an open shut case.
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you are in a tough situation man.. I can’t help you sorry but maybe others here will give you some advice.. my life is fucked too just because I am poor and autistic
Listen canada, we all make mistakes. And then we pay for them. I’m a hypocrite for saying this, but the only thing you can do now is have the courage to face whatever is coming, and do your best at damage control. Your decisions that day may realistically have drastically affected your future, that’s the truth. But perhaps if you glean some meaning from what happened to you, you might become a little wiser for it. I know that’s a pretty bad trade, but logically I think it’s the best one you’ll be given.
I never got a dui because I’m not the drinking type. Actually, we seem to be very different people. But I have made irreversible mistakes, so I know the feeling of being screwed. The only advice I can give you is “Hang in There”. You can’t lose a fight unless you’re beaten.