It is no problem. It’s pretty weird but I feel more comfortable talking about my story with complete strangers then my own family.
After I graduated from high school & turned 19 years old, I felt I had already accomplished all I could in life. Got many honors, played all sports, had a lot of friends. I guess you can say I “peaked” in highschool. When college came around, I felt very insignificant at a university so big , & just like another number. I started hanging out with people who liked to party, so I gave into the drugs & alcohol. I overused ecstasy, which later caused my depression to be even worse (my serotonin levels were pretty much depleted). My depression got so bad, I came to a point where I went into my parents closet to find the gun they would keep in our home for protection. I am not even sure if it was loaded, but if it was, I was going to shoot myself in the head. But something stopped me from doing it . I don’t mean to get religious but I strongly believe God stopped me from pulling the trigger, because I felt truly felt him tell my soul that there were beautiful things in stored for my future.
I am grateful I did not die that day, otherwise I would not be the 26 year-old mother of a beautiful 1-year-old son, & wife to a loving U.S. Army Veteran.
I did not go into detail about my story, but that is a summary of it. I recently decided to make that song about my struggle. If you have any questions I’d be more then happy to answer.?
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Hi Natalie, this is really cool! I’m curious to know the story behind the lyrics, but I won’t pry. Thank you for sharing this “part of you” 🙂
It is no problem. It’s pretty weird but I feel more comfortable talking about my story with complete strangers then my own family.
After I graduated from high school & turned 19 years old, I felt I had already accomplished all I could in life. Got many honors, played all sports, had a lot of friends. I guess you can say I “peaked” in highschool. When college came around, I felt very insignificant at a university so big , & just like another number. I started hanging out with people who liked to party, so I gave into the drugs & alcohol. I overused ecstasy, which later caused my depression to be even worse (my serotonin levels were pretty much depleted). My depression got so bad, I came to a point where I went into my parents closet to find the gun they would keep in our home for protection. I am not even sure if it was loaded, but if it was, I was going to shoot myself in the head. But something stopped me from doing it . I don’t mean to get religious but I strongly believe God stopped me from pulling the trigger, because I felt truly felt him tell my soul that there were beautiful things in stored for my future.
I am grateful I did not die that day, otherwise I would not be the 26 year-old mother of a beautiful 1-year-old son, & wife to a loving U.S. Army Veteran.
I did not go into detail about my story, but that is a summary of it. I recently decided to make that song about my struggle. If you have any questions I’d be more then happy to answer.?
That’s quite a nice song.
Thank you, dearly.