Didn’t get what i needed
But i talked to someone and it calmed me down
Im still here- scared as hell.. feel like shit
But I want you to know that your comments (on my last post) today – i read them and they matter to me. Thank you
When you feel so alone and cut off its hard to see anything but the darkness..its around me and in me – its trying to win and i’m trying to fight.. i want to give up so badly but something keeps me here… Right now, i keep running to my room for solace- i have panic attacks and the feeling of overwhelming dread in the pit of my stomach is the worst part. When you’re actually in physical pain because you are so sad.. its so hard to go on. I feel so alone, but I’m on this site and there are so many people…why do we all suffer like this? I don’t understand why- i just want it to stop.. i want the tears to stop, i want the fear, anguish and devastation, i just want it all to STOP
How do you go on, when you just want it to stop?
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Everybody has fear and suffer in his/her life, some more, some less. Same goes for tears.
Sharing stories and talking to each other does not always fix our problems, however it gives us the feeling of not being alone with them.
If you look for somebody to talk to just message me and I will be here.
But for now good night 🙂
Hey Katki. Maybe the hiccup is a good thing? For what its worth I am really happy to see you’re still around and posting. I understand that is no reason for you to change your plans. I have no idea what you’re going through but maybe a little extra time to talk and post is enough to take the edge off the tension and stress…
apparently a cup of tea is a hug in a mug…despite doing jack-all for fixing lives lol
Limited infinity… as a scientist i am greatly amused by your screen name
I’m sorry your suffering so bad. This big blue ball of billshit offers nothing but pain and false hope. For me, I don’t have the proper tools to do it with ethier. Last night I tried to hang myself again but once again my aunt caught me. She is pretty cool not to call the fascist psyche ward but still I was pissed off that I don’t have the true freedom and gift to go.
I gave a 2 hour speech up stairs to my aunt and uncle, a passionate and loud lecture about how life does not have meaning and that everyone should have a CHOICE! To opt out if they wish too., especially when it has been desired constantly for decades accompanied by a lifetime of pain and chaos. I went on to explain the importance of my own self ownership and my own right to self determination that no CULTrue can take away from me. Nobody will take away my will!!!! If I cannot live in peace than God damnit, let me die in peace. Whoever tries to stop me are my enemies in there own right.