I’m home alone. My parents are gone for the weekend. The urge to kill myself while they’re gone is as strong as its ever been and I fear I might do it tonight. I’m breathing heavily and my heart is pacing. I’m scared…
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hang in there dusty. breathe through the feels
im trying kills… i know exactly where the guns are and it would be so quick,easy, and painless..
Hey man, im here yo, you’ll make it through the night. Tell me what’s going through your mind right now.
I had a great today with friends but every time I come home, it gets horrible. I’m cutting myself now. I need to die man I don’t know what to do
Ya man. I know the pain. Do what you need to do to release the pain. What about your house that incites these feelings? Just solitude or?
All the feelings I run away from in the day come back to haunt me when I’m no longer with people. I think about suicide 24/7 but when I’m with people I can hide it from myself but when I’m alone it hits me hard. I can’t do this much longer.
You’re a strong guy to deal with this daily. Suppressing feelings all day is tough. Especially ones as dark as suicidal urges. You have my respect.
Thank you. For a whole year its slowly been getting worse and worse and it’s to the point where I’m exhausted from fighting and I’m just ready to give up. I can’t deal with it. Literally as soon as i wake up, the thoughts of killing myself hit me until i fall asleep at night. They use to scare me so much because they were so violent that I couldn’t sleep at night.
I know man. It’s rough. Keep fighting though. You don’t give up and I won’t either.
In case I don’t make it through the night, good luck to you man. Seriously, best of luck to you getting to LA, if you’re not there already. It actually kind of inspired me because you just made this a journey and you had the attitude of “I will do this and I will enjoy it.” I hope you find what you are looking for. Keep it up.
No dusty. No. You’re makin’ it through the night you fucker. Not getting outta this that easy. I’ll come over there and kick your ass if that’s the only thing that’ll keep you here. Or better yet I’ll murk you in COD
Hey, your parents aren’t around, you can use the chance to have some time and the house to yourself.
Blast some music, run around naked, make a mess.
I don’t know if you play any video games, but i know if i would get that chance more often i would start some game up and use the fact no one’s around to let some anger out on voice chat while playing a few matches.
I could try that. Thank you. I like to listen to music and I love to play video games. I can take my anger out on some people in call of duty but there’s also a good chance that could make me angrier. If you play COD, you know you can do amazing one good and then get completely destroyed the next.
I don’t really like army shooters that much, like cod, to be honest (I prefer sci fi ones like S4 League).
Though i do play them sometimes , so i know it could end up making you more mad haha. Was just one example.
If you need any help or suggestion with music i could help.
Monstercat is an awesome channel on youtube i’m currently addicted to.
Those are good games as well. Thanks for the suggestions. Ill try to look up monstercat.
Don’t TRY, you have to check monstercat.
They have some magical songs.
Crossroads, Snowblind, Invisible, Evaporate.
Any Tristam song (he’s awesome).
Turn on your speakers and go on monstercat and try some of these, trust me!
I’ll do it right now.
Good 😛
Sometimes being alone can be the worst. Don’t hesitate to reach out to a crisis centre for help if the urge gets too great. I will be alone for a few days in September and I’m not looking forward to it…. it’ll be a struggle so I appreciate what you’re going through.
take one breath at a time. I hope that the urge passes.
There’s no way to sugarcoat it, being alone is the worst. I don’t know how I’m going to ever move out of my parents house. & good luck to you man. I hope nothing bad happens to you in September. I really hope you have no problems and find those days in September enjoyable. In case I don’t make it through the night, best of luck to you. Sending all the love your way to you and to DuZo and Kills.
I am sure you’ll make it through the night. One step at a time. Find a distraction… COD was passed around and it may help. If all else fails please contact someone, a friend, a relative, a crisis centre…. all of them can be a distraction.
Another method and it is in the form of meditation…. focus on your breathes…. eliminate all distractions… your breathe is your focal point…. in and out… it calms me down sometimes. Just a thought…. I’m concerned for you… please hang on.
Mornin’ Duster. How’d you sleep? And more importantly: How’re ya?
Unfortunately alive. In pain, but alive.
So glad to hear you’re alive. Pain lets us know we’re alive. At least you feel something. I believe that will change soon. The pain I mean.
I’m not sure how many more nights like that I can take. But thank you for last night. I’m just a complete stranger but yet you took the time to make sure I was okay. It restores some faith in this world for me. I can’t thank you enough.
I’m glad I could somehow make that much of an impact on you. I’m astounded. Thank you for giving me that opportunity to shine some of my darkness into yours.