Over a year ago my parents were giving me a ‘lecture’ on something (not something unusual) wherever they do so I feel really frustrated and that time I don’t know how, completely involuntary I told them I’ve been considering to kill myself (I had decided to never tell anyone but like I said I told them in rush)
What about you?
Plz ignore bad English.
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Now? No. Back when I was a teenager my mother knew about my suicidal thoughts. The second time I was released from the pysch ward I told her I was fine and she didn’t have to worry about me anymore. There are times when I get really depressed and then she’ll ask me if I think about hurting myself. I always say no even though it’s not true. If I were to say yes, it would be another hospital stay, more disappointment, and awkward avoidance from my siblings.
I never talk about my feelings with anyone other then users on here because I now know how people around me react to it. It’s unfortunate, but it’s life.
ok, yeah I meant have you ever talked about your suicide with your family. And what you said about talking about suicide with ppl in real life is true. Ironically the only person I know who killed himself (my cousin two years back) told me indirectly but I only realized on his suicide day what he actually told me.
I’m sorry about your cousin. đ Yeah, sometimes it’s hard to talk to the people around us.
Absolutely! I just can’t keep my mouth shut. When I talk to my aunt about it, I try to tell it to her from a philosophical and empirical perspective. As many of you know, I tried reasoning with her. I think she is accepting it but would be totally against my choice. At least she’s cool enough not to send out the white coats. When I get closer to doing myself in, I’ll be more quiet about it.
I just cant tell my parents that im thinking on it
my mom is a religious person, she will put me on a exorcism on the church, thinking that im with demons!
my dad would take me on a hospital… whats not good on the Brasil… here, they make everythink to earn money, they will close me on a room without anything… drug me…
no thanks…
its better just pass away alone
That really sucks. People thought the mentally ill where demon possessed because they had no flipping clue about how the brain worked. Back then they thought the brain was in your heart and the the real brain was “stuffing”.
yes, they are just so… ignorant…
sometimes i think that they dont fell at all
maybe im just a bizarre abomination…
u knows.. I fell something
You are not an abomination. Yeah, they would take you to a horrible hospital here and drug you without your consent or take you to church and try to perform an exorcism on you.
I know… My mother and stepdad used to say the same thing about me; that Satan was using me to destroy them.
its like this is my fault
“Dear lucy-chan
come take my soul, im a bit tasty”
OHh God!
they really think its like this!
why everyone is so ignorant? why this is a taboo?
I like to think that it isn’t their fault; at least when it comes to my mom. Maybe they were brainwashed by church, idk.
Lol but yeah, Satan himself chose me so I must be one of a kind
hey! I’m new to all this thing so please don’t criticize me! Personally I haven’t talked about my thoughts with my parents because I don’t want them to pity me and to intervene in my life in order to change it! I don’t want them to get upset and I don’t want to draw their attention
Not at the moment, but I told them that I “used to feel very suicidal”. At this point and after everything that happened with me my mom and younger sister know that I’m not “normal” anymore.
i think.. if i was Normal…
no.. I dont
I’m not “normal” since I was 6 or something but things really went downhill when I was 13 or 14
Yup… they know. They’ve known i was going to get to this point for years too, but they stay oblivious to the fact and i don’t mention it often (since i know it’s easier for them that way).
No, but they have about a year ago before I was going to therapy. I think the only reason I still live is because of my affinity in mathematics and physics.
I’ve only mentioned it to my sister… I never used the actual word “suicide”… I explained it using the term “how long I’ll be around”. She understood the reference, she started crying. She knows a little bit of my mental struggles… only a fraction but we share some similarities mental-health-wise, after all we grew up in the same cult-like environment.
I cut off communication with my parents about 5 years. To my knowledge they don’t know of my plans. They wouldn’t understand and would probably perform some sort of prayer thing.
A close friend knows of my desire. She depends on me which makes it both awkward and a topic not discussed… it’s taboo.
No. I think they suspect or sense something is off. I can’t tell them, otherwise they will feel guilty.
I told them a few months back because my father wasn’t understanding when I told him I was mentally unstable. They have me see a therapist now and have pretty much forgotten that their child has sat alone at night multiple times contemplating whether or not to end their life. My father treated it as kind of a joke the day after, casually mentioning it to friends and family.
“Hey mom
we are going to hell, to talk to Satan-kun and crucify some guys in the hell
seeya later”
LOL
im a demon now.
or something like this.
i dont think that the church itself brainwash someone, i think that EVERYTHING make the people stop thinking about it.
you only have to stop on a HighSchool and see how many of them use drugs, go buying everything and dont think on they future…
the humankind are lost
@Reiko-chan Irk? Why would I want to be friends with Satan (if he existed)? Doing that would be very dumb because he’d just destroy you or torture your soul after using you.
And yeah… We humans are all lost.
PS. Ă tĂŁo bontinho vocĂȘ colocar -kun, -san e outros pronomes de tratamento em todos os nomes que eu nĂŁo resisti e mudei o seu. Hehe.
Maybe she meant Mr. Satan,
I was drinking water when I read that and I almost died. Lol Why do we always go back to anime lol? That would make more sense, Mf. at least that guy had some sense of humor.
and if lucifer isnt that bad?
i dont know, the pure, good, bealtiful god make this with this world…
kkkk pode colocar kkkkk
Ă© costume, como falo um pouco de japones, voce fica com isso
tudo Ă© san,chan,kun,sama etc
I could make a reference to Kaikan Phrase but i’ll stop while i’m winning, lol.
He probably looks really handsome; he’s sin incarnate.
Gente, que medo… Tudo na nossa histĂłria parece igual. Eu sei dois alfabetos japoneses. Eu aprendi quando eu tinha treze anos e eu jamais esqueci. Eu nĂŁo formulo frases nem nada por mim mesma, mas eu leio que Ă© uma beleza.
@Mf I’ll be waiting for the next reference to 90s anime lol surprise me!
somos gemeas? espero q n….
i wish he is at least a hot angel kkk
Reiko, he probably looks like Al Pacino (vocĂȘ sabe o motivo, o filme). Gotta go for a while now, stay well and talk soon xx
My family know im suicidal. They dont do anything though. They think im not serious but i am and i know it will upset them when i finally suceed because they didnt think it was real. They never bother to ask if im thinking of hurting myself. I honestly dont think they care