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Such an uplifting post, I’m really happy for you hun. Keep doing it! I’m very sorry about your struggles too-I couldn’t have made it as far as I did without my parents help-even though there were times I really hated them.

I guess I’m in a similar boat as you-I feel that “I’m making it” despite all the shit I’ve had to go through in my life. I think I’m getting closer to climbing to my next plateau-where I’ll finally begin to live well and enjoy life. Don’t get me wrong there’s a lot of work still left for me to do. It’s going to be big (for me) so I won’t get into any detail but I think I can do it.

And to a side-point, yes our world is a very cruel and horrible place, especially towards weak, vulnerable and powerless people. I was in a lower state in life once and despite my university education, I got treated like crap-because I didn’t have a job/no money. So I fixed that problem and it made a big difference. I feel sorry for anyone stuck on the lower rungs, esp. for girls-it’s dog eat dog out there.

I’m still around because there are some things about life I really love and want to enjoy before I die. So I’m going to try to make the most out of the next decade or two, before I give suicide some more serious consideration (so long as things don’t fall apart on me).