Venting

Guys, I don’t know what to do. I was feeling productive and updated my resume, but for what. I don’t own a car and I don’t have my license because I need more practice, but there are no cars for me to practice with. My dad is an asshole and my mom is a ditz. They frustrate me so much. When I was in 6th grade, I wanted to divorce my parents. I think that is one of my biggest regrets in life. My all time biggest regret in life is that I didn’t try harder to kill myself in 8th grade. I was stupid. I just swallowed every different pill I could find in my kitchen and when I woke up, I was so disappointed, my heart sank and I just stayed in bed the rest of the day. My everyday wish is to go back and tell myself is that it will not get better, only worse. That there isn’t anything worth living for. When I was younger I always believed it would get better and that I would be happy in the future, but, damn, was that a lie.