people can be so blind to whats going on with other people i find it insane. For a few years now ive been depressed and im bipolar. Senior year i ended up cutting my wrist feeling alone is never fun. I simply dont understand all the people that i thought i was friends with or my family for a matter of fact can simply just not see the true pain and auffering i go though everyday. This past year i went to college and there was a bridge right near campus that 3 people would jump off of each month. The first time i heard the gelicopters it really scared me and made me feel bad for what i had put people though but even still most people dont understand what its like to despise your own self, there is no single part of me that i am proud about no idea of what i want to eo or what i could do, and to make matters worse when i talk about depression or anything to the peope i know they jump to conclusions so i stopped doing it. For example my parents rushed me to the hoaptiol like i was mentally insane after seeing my wrists, people in my school even ignored my cuts when they were thrown in there faces. How in the world am i supposed to keep going on when i dont have the confidence or self esteem to do anything?
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Forgive me for coming over completely stupid but how often have you worked on your confidence? As it could be comething moulded to your needs. Have you tried acting classes?! As crazy as it sounds, many actors arent confident as such until they have a part or a mask of a character. Then on stage tjey can pull off alsorts because its not the real them. Take away the setting and they become introverted again. You could invent your ideal personality bit by bit and trying out little scenarios and before long you can put a mask on to fit a particular scenario and give you a sort of comfort zone when dealing with certain situations.