I wish that I would fall on a sword. I wish my life would just end. It’s so hard to deal with someone you love not loving you back. It’s worse to deal with that in conjunction with a very difficult job and no motivation. I wish tings would just end. I wish I would disappear. I don’t think anyone would miss me. I don’t think anyone would notice.
Well, that’s not true. My family would really miss me. I’ve worked for the last few months to make people love me, to matter to people, to make their lives more fruitful and happier. I’m trying to not be a parasite. I’m trying to make the world a better place for people so that I don’t feel useless.
So I guess I’m not useless. I’m just focused on the one person who doesn’t love me. How do I look past that? It hurts like using a sharp knife and turning it in my stomach.
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That’s what kept me going for a while. Living for others. Ask people here on SP. when I first came here i always had somethin good to say to someone on their posts. it carries you for a while but as you’ll see. It sucks you dry then you slowly transition to putting yourself first – which is a must to actually be of real help to the world.
How to deal with someone you love and doesn’t love you back – You stop dealing with them.
Focusing on them and trying your best with them is just going to drain you more.
If they don’t love you back – let them be. You will find someone else who will.
Sometimes love is blind; so it’s hard to see at first, but if you keep spending more time and effort on someone who doesn’t love you it will make it harder and harder on you.
It will hurt less once you start letting go of them.
*poke*
Hm?