Im super apathetic towards everything. Right now, I have a horse, which was always my dream in life and it finally happened. But I am not happy. I have a job, a good mom, a horse, etc. there’s really no reason why I SHOULD be feeling this suicidal at this point in time and I’m really struggling with it. I’m so apathetic towards everything. I stopped doing my chores (not that I was ever great at consistently doing them) I do online school and that’s just going awfully. I am failing every subject. My mom is breathing down my throat constantly. I don’t have any goals in life at all anymore. I am contemplating getting my GED instead of this bullshit. But if I were to get out of this depressing time, I’d hate myself for doing it and ruining a chance at a future. Anyone got any advice?