i wish could go back and do things over but i cant. its to late to much has happened, no one will help me. i had a chance and already it gets fucked up. if i could go back i would have done it differently, but its to late. god is laughing at me for sure now. i just hope i get to what i need to do before someone else dose they would make me suffer. im almost glad people think i have an std. im afraid to get tested because if i do and people find out i dont and if they get there hands on me i know they will keep me alive for days just to do what they want. i wish i was the person i was before. people keep saying things will get better in time but they keep getting worse. i wish i could tell people but no one will believe me especially now. i know things wont get better, i just hope i get to it before someone else dose. i dont want to be tortured before i die. i just want to go. i really hope i get to do it before someone else dose. im just fucked i dont have any other options. im sorry
more than anything i just wish some one would help me if i where anyone else they would try to help me but i cant say anything because if i do no one will believe me. everyone just thinks its all in my head and its not i just need proof but no one will help me. so i have no choice but to give up im so sorry i just wish i just wish things where different
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“im afraid to get tested because if i do and people find out i dont and if they get there hands on me i know they will keep me alive for days just to do what they want.”
Marriage?
Um, anyway, stuff in your head is as real as anything else as far as I’m concerned.
I get tested all the time. Not because I worry about me but because I don’t want to screw up somebody else’s life.
Yeah, you can’t change yesterday, but you can choose to spend more time remembering the good parts. You may be able to change tomorrow if you try. And as far as today goes, try to be un-unhappy.
The trouble with going back in time is if you manage to do it, somebody writes a book about it that makes you look like a total dick.
I could try to help, but I don’t understand. I am sorry though for your shit
yeah its a really long story and your going to think that im crazy but thanks for trying