i hate being around people, even if its just me and one person. i like my bubble where i dont have to talk to any one i can just sit and go into my own little world and ignore everyone else or at least try to, but when someone is around its like “damn now i have to make awkward conversation with someone who probably wont like me anyway.” and dont get me in a crowd of people, fuck me ill have a complete mental brake down if i dont have my ear plugs. i cant wait until this is all over. Monday will come and ill have the house to myself for a little while. i can sleep all i want to and pretend like i did something, i love sleeping. the only reason why i sleep is so i can dream. ive been having trouble with dreaming, i hope its just the fact that i cant remember them when i wake up instead of just not being able to, that would really suck. sleeping is the only time i get any peace and dreaming is the only time i can be happy without someone trying to take it away. if i lose the ability to dream then i know its time to go.