torture

idk why nothing gets better

it doesn’t

i feel so much pain in being alive so alone such a struggle so hard now every day it’s like trying to breathe can’t breathe literally sometimes

the list of bad things is too long, the past always knocking me in the eye

i know im going to die soon b/c i cant bear sexual abuse and it’s horrors all alone anymore the fb’s the depression the noise terrorism the paranoia the past running into people i dont want to see the stigma

and at this point im really looking forward to it

it would be nice if there had been god at all to torment me

life is torture

that is all

ty for listening