So I haven’t posted in a while. My auntie took me to a theme park with her and my nephew. It was good to be away from everyone and spend time with them as I don’t see them much, but I’m home now and I hate it.
Its seems as though a guy is interested in me?? Not completely sure how this is happening. Its probably just some sick joke or something but I’m enjoying it while it lasts I guess.
Its my Nana’s birthday today.. She passed in may. I miss her so much. Not a day goes by when I don’t think about her. I just wish she was here. If things keep going the way they are, then I wont have to wait much longer to see her.
I wish I could be happy.
I don’t even think I’m sad anymore.
I’m just numb
I don’t feel anything.
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You might want to try meditation. It may sound silly or stupid, but if you pick any position you’re comfortable with, you can do happiness meditation. Just empty out all your feelings and smile for no damn reason. Try to find a laugh, and don’t let thoughts of the world have anything to do with it. Try to create a place inside that is just yours, that you own, that no one gets to control. It may not be like the things we’re used to wanting in this world, but it is at least yours. It is often thoughts of the world that numb us, so create yourself a place that’s not of this world.
I understand the numb feeling. I’m sorry things are so bad. I agree with the first comment – try to do something that helps others improve their mood, even if it does nothing for you at first. It can start to change the way you feel. 🙂
Is good to know some can relate to me, that im not as odd as i once thought. Message me whenever if you need, i wont turn anyone down if they come to me, so ill be here to listen if you need it
Thank you. 🙂
Hey Cro0ked,
I’m so glad to hear from you.. I was wondering where you were.. What had happened..
Anyways, fell free to message me, anytime you like. I’m sorry things are like this but I hope that I can hear from you a little more often, friend. 🙂
People actually notice when I dont post? Woah. Id just had a few family feuds and my father brought up a lot of my past. I lost all my friends and I guess I wasnt coping very well
Hey cro0ked young,
I’m sorry you feel so numb. I can assure you that you are not the only one who feels that way.
It’s so difficult to see things rationally when you are numb and feel nothing, I’m currently in that same place my self.
But I want you to know your posts are noticed, and we are here for you. Whenever you feel alone or need to know if you exist. You do.