I feel the same reading the posts on this site. What amazes me is the amount of people who feel this way yet smile and pretend everything is okay in their daily life. I walk around looking miserable and if people ask what’s wrong I have to fight back tears. I kind of wish I were better at hiding it seems like a trap.
When I was in the public eye I would often tell others that I had resting depression face. I am not sure it is even a thing but it has gotten me out of uncomfortable situations before.
… seriously. I get at least one txt every few hrs asking how I am, how’s my day, what am I doing, blah blah, I know they’re all trying to be nice (and making sure I reply lol) but it makes me feel worse because I feel bad to not give a fuck that ppl care. I’ve reduced my responses to ‘meh’/’avg’ or just copy/pasting what i write thé last time i was asked. Makes me feel like an ass hole…
might as well, i think alot of people ask those usual questions to seem like they care or give a stuff (its about making themselves look better), so why not just say meh, or blah, or um, good… etc
I am alright. This site has really helped me out of my dip the last couple of days. Just knowing that I am not alone really helps. I am starting to loosen up a bit like allowing myself to have a beer, talk and eat food. I realise I had been punishing myself and basically being a prison warden to myself. I am trying to enjoy my day but enjoy is too strong a word. I am alright and alright is a massive step away from wanting to die. How are you today, Minus?
Hahahahaha, well yes, it was more ironic, or maybe Meta-ironic, cuz it was also very sincere : )
And, I’m happy you replied as I can totally relate to what you wrote. So, I’m going to take my dog for a walk and maybe stop and sit outside at some kaffee and drink a beer and have a prison break. All because of YOU.
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I feel the same reading the posts on this site. What amazes me is the amount of people who feel this way yet smile and pretend everything is okay in their daily life. I walk around looking miserable and if people ask what’s wrong I have to fight back tears. I kind of wish I were better at hiding it seems like a trap.
Yes, I know. I look probably about as miserable. It’s so hard to fake…and people asking if I’m okay just makes me feel worse.
When I was in the public eye I would often tell others that I had resting depression face. I am not sure it is even a thing but it has gotten me out of uncomfortable situations before.
… seriously. I get at least one txt every few hrs asking how I am, how’s my day, what am I doing, blah blah, I know they’re all trying to be nice (and making sure I reply lol) but it makes me feel worse because I feel bad to not give a fuck that ppl care. I’ve reduced my responses to ‘meh’/’avg’ or just copy/pasting what i write thé last time i was asked. Makes me feel like an ass hole…
Oh I know the feeling. I usually just completely disregard it as though theyd never asked.
might as well, i think alot of people ask those usual questions to seem like they care or give a stuff (its about making themselves look better), so why not just say meh, or blah, or um, good… etc
…so, how is everyone today? ?
I am alright. This site has really helped me out of my dip the last couple of days. Just knowing that I am not alone really helps. I am starting to loosen up a bit like allowing myself to have a beer, talk and eat food. I realise I had been punishing myself and basically being a prison warden to myself. I am trying to enjoy my day but enjoy is too strong a word. I am alright and alright is a massive step away from wanting to die. How are you today, Minus?
it’s a good thing to be alright, it’s a nice change of pace. 🙂
Yeah, it is quite a relief. 🙂
Oh, your question was a joke about your other post but I fell for it. Ha. Oh well. *blush* My name is violet and I am stupid >.<
I love your name! 🙂
Thank you. Of course it is not my real name. I wish it were.
Ah, I thought it was. Nice choice though, I love flower names. 🙂
Hahahahaha, well yes, it was more ironic, or maybe Meta-ironic, cuz it was also very sincere : )
And, I’m happy you replied as I can totally relate to what you wrote. So, I’m going to take my dog for a walk and maybe stop and sit outside at some kaffee and drink a beer and have a prison break. All because of YOU.
Yay! Go team suicide, breaking out all over the show 🙂