I’ve thought about killing myself for awhile now and I attempted a couple times. I lost one of my best friends to suicide almost a year ago now wow it doesn’t feel that long, I’ve been raped, and until a year ago I n had anyone I trusted honestly the only thing keeping me here is my best friend who is alive and the memory of the ones I’ve lost, is it weak if I give up?? Selfish to leave him behind?? I mean it’s not like he really cares what happens to me now anyways his replaced me with his girlfriend and I don’t even know…. I probably sound like a wingy idiot but someone please help
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“replaced me with his girlfriend” – Somehow I doubt that. It’s interesting how when we are happy we can hold a plethora of contradictory ideas in our heads at the same time and believe they are all true, but when we become depressed everything seems so binary.
I’m sure your friend wants to spend time with his girlfriend and spend time with you, too.
How did you feel when you found out your friend committed suicide? Are you willing to inflict those kinds of feelings on the people around you?
I know it’s tough. I don’t have much in the way of an answer. I keep harping on therapy and medication around here but that’s not an answer for many. Still, I’d try everything I could before leaving life behind.
I’m trying and thats why I have given up yet but it’s ju getting harder to keep going, and I’m scared to admit that I’m not ok to people I know Just incase I fail someone again,