My name is Free. My name is Happy.
I wish…
I’m trapped. I’m trapped in this body. I’m trapped in this horrible life I don’t want to live. I’m trapped in this fucked up world.
I want to break free. I want to be free. Live up to my name.
Freedom. Happiness. I’m far from getting either of those things. My names. Even hearing someone calling my names tears me apart inside. I will never feel any of those things. I will never be free. I will never be happy.
I’m sad right now, and I don’t understand why. It wasn’t a particularly great day, but it wasn’t bad either. I just have that mood…
That mood. Not exactly suicidal, not exactly positive. Just a mood where I can die and I just wouldn’t give a damn. I don’t like feeling this way. It will deepen and I will end up hurting myself.
My name is Free. My name is Happy.
N.N.M
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Hello Happy. Hello Free. Would you like a cup of tea?
Yes, please. A cup of tea is excatly what I need right now.
Honey sweet, lemon drop tea. Two cups full for Ylem31. I also suggest chamomile. c:
Sounds nice ^_^
God I love this post, you have no idea how much I love reading this. Yes! Yes you are free and happy. All you need to is start walking away from all the shit storm around you…just walk and walk and walk until you can’t hear the gunfire and insanity behind you any longer.
Thank you HDS. I’m waiting for the year to end. I’m hoping I’ll be able to walk away then
Hey, I know you feel – I spent six or seven years not giving a damn if I were to die or not, the rest was a mix of wanting to and not caring at all if I did.
You need to process all of the things that are going on around you. Walk away from the things you can’t handle right now, then come back to them when you can. Set clear boundaries. Prioritize. You’ve SO got this.
If you ever need help, PM me (Though.. I’m new to the site, so if there even is PM, I’ll figure it out sometime soon).
-NH