I think that I’m really not cut out for life.When I think of my future, I see myself alone. Not because that I suck at doing stuff but because of my anxiety. I am always scared to do things out of my comfort zone, I panic fast, I get angry in little time, I speak before I think and that I am a pessimist. I unknowingly ruin relationships with other people because of these. I wonder if I can get life through with this. I have put all my efforts in changing myself, even just one step at a time but still to no avail, I can’t change. Maybe its because of the people that surrounds me here at home that I can’t change. Well if I can just get out of this place I might be happy or somewhat. I dunno. I hate this feeling. If I’m not anxious, well I’am depressed and vice versa.
Don’t worry, won’t even dare think to go to the ropes since I’m biased to the fact that I view suicide as a selfish act.
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I hear you. I know that may not be much comfort. However, I hear you.
The anxiety is crippling. It’s a nightmare being around others when we are constantly worrying and constantly fearful.
I hope that you start to feel more like living soon. No one deserves this.
Maybe if you do get out of the home situation you are in, you may start to feel better but unfortunately you won’t know that until you are out of it.
I am glad to hear you won’t be acting on any thoughts, but I also hope you become more than just existing.