but girls still like me???? I don’t get it at all. Whenever I am in class I just put on my headphones and bob my head and groove, even sing at times. \I also have a bit of social anxiety, yet I don’t know. I don’t get what they see in me.
I used to have times I was socially inept and a total loser, but I grew from all those experiences. I might still have a long way to go… But if you take care of yourself, and keep your mind strong then one day it’ll get better and better…
I am such a weirdo, that has sleeping problems, whenever there’s stuffs to do the next day. Yet I don’t fucking get why these people are interested in me. maybe it’s that mysteriousness… hmmm.
Recently I’ve borrowed a book about Christian Rosenkreuz… I became interested in these things ever since my life started becoming a bit weird. At around the same time I started getting social anxiety, and other mental problems.
Just weird things happened to me A LOT, like secret societies, magick, people trying to harm me. Religious phenomena. Just weird things. And like after all this. I feel like I can’t relate to anyone, and open up anymore.
So I barely talk to other people. Even though there’s a girl that I really like, and she likes me. But tommorows the second to last day, and I feel it’s too late. I don’t think she likes me anymore now.
Stuff like this happens to me a lot… and I don’t think I’ll ever grow out of it. Whenever I do, something fucking weird happens to me, than I close up again…
Instead of continuing to rant. I’ll just share some music that explains how I feel.
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@thefreed: hey great music. Thanks. I especially like desire, under your spell for deeply personal reasons. Always like new music and it is a special treat that you included Desire in the mix.
Sorry to hear you are feeling a little crazy, or a lot crazy. All I can say is welcome aboard, join us for the ride. Feel free to just shake and open up a can of crazy. Waters warm jump in.